+my life+

RARR

2010-02-21T01:24:00.002+08:00

no rest for the weary!

but i thank you God that i'm alive. and though tired and drained, that You've pulled me through the past week!

You're truly a God who provides.

was so worked up and upset yesterday. just.. a whole accumulation of everything! shut myself in an empty GSR. hid my head. and prayed like crazy that God would carry me, and grant me all that i needed to live through the madness.
took a 15 min power nap. and woke up spiritually and physically refreshed.

that wasn't the only form of provision that He's been giving me the past few days.. had this friend, david, (who was from my orientation camp group & is also in my current biz law class) randomly call me up on thursday night to discuss the chapter on misrepresentation. and i casually mentioned the postal acceptance rule/ email acceptance thingy, which his group actually did their presentation on! so he explained it to me.

and TA-DAHH. it came out for the biz law exam yesterday! also, was glad that david, ty and i could revise biz law together yesterday before the exam. i know that if we hadn't, i wouldn't have covered as much ground.

after the biz law exam yesterday, was drained like CRAZY. but my group still had to stay till 10pm to work on our presentation (which was today!)
thought i'd die from overload, and i had to chiong making the presentation slides pretty till 2am.
but strangely, as i was doing the slides, could really feel His strength. and He gave me whatever i needed to make the slides look pretty and clear! (: must say they're the nicest i've ever done. cool how He's your strength when you're weak.

was actually discourgaed during today's actual presentation. like well, we got asked a million questions. and felt that i hadn't performed that well.

but as i began to reflect on all that He's already pulled me through, i realised that hey! surely the God who's been faithful all this while will CONTINUE to be faithful, even if i can't feel/see it right now.

so, i thank you God for your provision. (:
and also for awesome group mates, whom i'm so glad to have met! the girls are really sweet (:
lots of loves to yin, stella, sarah and ty! felt that everyone really gave of their best, and that's awesome ((:
special mention goes to ty for compiling the crazy 22-page report. *faints at the thought of it* on behalf of all the girls, XIE XIE NI LE. (^^)

and oh yes. God provided several people to teach me stats for my homework (X and LTB recce (although the kids were really naughty) still went smoothly, so thank God.

have LTB meeting from 10am-5pm tomorrow. RARRRRRR.
strength. wisdom. love. creativity. and so much more. God, i trust you'll continue to carry me through!

---
and to my joyce darling who flew off to australia today, i love you and miss you dear. ): please please take care of yourself over there. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHH.
(#.#)

of puffs

2010-02-17T23:41:00.002+08:00

its distressing that everytime i now see a facebook ad, i think to myself "you're a puff!" and feel sad that you can't sue them for their lies. ):

maybe the next time your mummy or daddy ask you to do something, you can shout "undue influence! i charge you under class 2a!"
ah-hah.
or maybe not.

as ty puts it, Poisson distribution is "poissonous". AHAHAHAHA.
okay, that was bad. but when you're stressed, anything goes huh.

and you know, starbucks should invent a new kinda coffee. like, a java chip without the fat, and whipped cream that doesn't add to your waistline.
would be good if they could cut the prices too. mmmmm.

going to siying primary school tomorrow morning! have LTB recce there. gonna play with the kiddies some icebreaker games too, and give them sweeties. pray that it'll go smoothly! (:

biz law meeting at 2pm. (THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME WITH THE SLIDES)
AND i have to finish my stats homework, and finish my readings on mistake and undue influence (the part between husband and wife). stats formulas are beginning to not make sense. ): at least i've kinda finished some questions!

stats hw due FRIDAY.
biz law exam on FRIDAY.
and biz law presentation + report due on SATURDAY.
keep my group and i in prayer okay!

the fun, joy and laughter of week 7.
thank God for CNY, at least i had 3 days at home to stare at biz law.

remind me to go on a diet and swim at least 3 times next week. rargh.

but yes God, i trust You'll see me through this week! and allow me to hear Your voice in all things.
(and the next and the one following that too and...!)

signed up for gen 12! (:
nagoya, kazakhstan (yes, no joke), and new zealand. lets see which God calls me to! (^^)

psalm 73

2010-02-16T11:59:00.001+08:00

Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.

You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.

Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.

My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.

But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds.

(Psalm 73:23-28)

security

2010-02-13T19:12:00.002+08:00

before i start on yesterday,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (^^) hope everyone gets plenty of ang pows, wheeee...
& happy (early) valentine's day too! (: loves!

really thank God for pulling me (and ALL of us) through Love Matters yesterday.

had stats class in the morning. lunch with a whole bunch of crusaders. and when we got back, i had to chereograph the "dance" bit for the Love Matters tiny skit (which was happening in 2 hours)! (o.0) i was going "AHHH!!!!" in my head, simply cause if you know me, you know i'm dance-disabled. =.= so yeah.. really had to send plenty of SOS messages to God then.

and He pulled us 3 through it! (thanks to jonk for her awesome inputs, and to ty for the help with jonathan's part!)
we managed to come up with a simple dance, and it had this long portion where jonathan had to give a flower to rachel, and rachel looks smitten. hehehehe. (^^)

at 3pm, a bunch of us headed to treehouse earlier to set up the place, guests start coming in at 4pm, and its time to serve!

by the time it came for prof rani tan to do her sharing, i was beat from all the running around.
as i sat there and as she shared about God's love, i felt His tangible presence right besides me. its like, He gave me a hug, and really encouraged me and filled me with His love in that moment. right there and then, i felt so secure in Him (: lalalala.... (^^)

another thing to thank God for personally is that my twc classmate that i casually invited the other day showed up! (: was glad that i could share a bit with her and some other girls. and she enjoyed herself, so yay! (:

and yes, the skit went great! (: really, God is good. jonathan and rachel were fantastic, and looked darn adorable, hehehehe. (^^)

after the whole Love Matters event, went to junhao's house with joyce darling! (: thanks to him and his pretty wife mei ying for their hospitality, they're really sweet (: was great catching up with the tungling pals, and we had an awesome time of worship and prayer, where His presence was just so strongly in that house. (: (plus i enjoyed the yummy curry for dinner, teeheee xD)
hope cheryl dear uploads pictures soon! (:

and now for some random pictures taken yesterday!
taken at the croom!

HAHAHA. i just realised the cute link. how we have "security" BECAUSE "Jesus loves (me)" (the words on mike's shirt!!) (^^)

i think jonk poses the nicest of us all. what a natural.

and what is daniel poon doing?? HAHAHAHA. xP.

and here we have the hello kitty toy i was hugging at junhao's house. ISN'T IT CUTE AND FLUFFYYYY (((:

anyway, desperately need to mug for biz law. and prepare for biz law presentation/report! (o.0) its going to be a crazy week, coupled with cny visitations. AHHH! so pray for strength, time management, and an extra dosage of His grace and wisdom in all this!

biz law

2010-02-10T18:34:00.003+08:00

was a little bit high at yesterday's biz law meeting. (i mean, when you've been in school since 8.30am, you're either really high come evening, or a dead cranky zombie)

for some strange reason or other, we (the other 3 biz law girls and ty) started speaking in chinese.

so, offer & acceptance becomes "ni yao bu yao? (you want or not?)" and "wo jie shou! (i accept!)"
consideration becomes "wo xiang yi xiang (i'll think about it)".
misrepresentation "luan luan shuo hua! (anyhow talk)"
and frustration "wo hao fan ah! (i'm fed up!)"

hahahaha. cheap thrill. (^^) [for those who've done biz law/taking it now, i think you'll be able to better understand it, teehee]

LTB is cute. think my group's gonna do some sexy music video. WAHAHA. not sure if we've got time yet though! but the group seems pretty excited. ((:

been kinda consumed with making the door gifts for Love Matters. but am grateful for all the encouragements/help i've received! (: and i think the door gifts look pretty, thank God (^^)

spent yesterday night directing a tiny little skit for Love Matters too! awww, they look so cute, hehehe, XD.

and if you're wondering what Love Matters is all about...

YOU'RE INVITED FOR IT (((:

Friday, February 12, 2010
4:00pm - 6:00pm
Treehouse Café, SMU, School of Information Systems Level 2

* No fee required
* For any enquiries, please email: lovematters2009@gmail.com or contact Bobby at 91800447

AND OH. i soft-rebonded my hair and cut BANGS on monday. (o.0) hahahha. and i now look like a shitake mushroom, if i do say so myself. xP. hopefully it'll look a bit more natural as the days go by!
it looks a bit like hers, i think.
okay. biz law time.

at least i've done my ltb stuffies by now. the ltb skit we'll be doing will be SOOO cute, can't wait (^^)

surrender. hear. and obey.

surrender

2010-02-07T16:33:00.001+08:00

"...but the LORD's unfailing love surrounds the man who trusts in Him."
(Psalm 32:10b)

feeling the heat

2010-02-04T21:02:00.002+08:00

burnt.

for the heart that holds onto Him!

greater dependency.

pray for me okay! a million things are coming at me, and i need Him more than ever.

for wisdom in my studies/presentatios, for His grace in friendships, for His guidance in my life, and His direction with regards to church/cell group, and for SUCH clarity in what i should be doing in Crusade! whether or not He wants me to rise up, or sit back down. whether or not He has plans for me to be involved in other things, like uni-fire!

and IF, IF He calls me to any of the above, for His love to really protect me. and His hand to guide my every step. for i know that i can't walk alone )):

okay, chiong stats time. AHHH!!!

girl-time (:

2010-02-01T15:15:00.004+08:00

okay, yes, so i've been getting kinda MIA on my blog the past few days.. hmm. well, a picture speaks a thousand words! (^^) so here we go!

CAMWHORE TIME YEAH. (^^)

absurd play singular (asher's play) on friday evening! thanks to mao mao for agreeing to be my "hot date". HAHAHA.
loved the play, by the way. ((: really superb acting! missed watching plays.
plus really enjoyed the time of htht-ing with mao mao on the (very long) journey home from nus.

love lots! *huggg*

at timbre on saturday evening! (: thanks for the birthday treat, the pretty present and Forever 21 voucher babes! (:

awww!! ((:
taken inside timbre! we ended up getting a corner seat, where we could talk in peace. xP.

taken outside timbre! (^^)

at judah lyne's 21st birthday (sunday afternoon)! where cheryl dear and i organised the games/programme ((: *high 5 to her that our birthday girl was happy!*
(really thank God for pulling us through this one.. whole thing was really last minute! but the party guests seemed happy with the games, so whew!)

us & the birthday cake! om nom nom (: (but we didnt eat it. had to leave early.(o.0))
cam-whore-style!
birthday girl's brother. birthday girl. and us girls! (:
joanna darling!
joyce dear! (^^)
pretty tulips the brother bought for the birthday sister! AWWWW. (:

anyway. something i just told joyce, AHAHA.

"true love is this.
*sends edited picture of her and joanna to put for her facebook profile picture*
editing the profile pic of the one you love, even tho your face isn't in it"

how's that for the profound thought of the day. (^^) teeheeee.

twc today. followed by lunch with tai wei and his HR pals! where we went to this food court near.. umm.. was it wilkie shopping centre? (please don't kill me!! XP) where i had mee tai bak, which was really bland. (o.0) lunch was followed by bean curd for a snack!
how fattening. xP.

dinner with chloe dear at delifrance, where i attempted to teach her financial accounting.... then our food came and we got distracted eating! xP. oops. and she then had to rush off for work, so looks like FA tuition is kinda postponed till next time huh. xP.

alright. biz law reading time again. (o.0)
keep my LTB group in prayer! that God'll help us in all the planning/contacting sponsors/for favour with the people we work with!

yay, oikos

2010-01-29T00:09:00.002+08:00

and yayyy! cell photographer (aka jun ye) (^^) has uploaded the cell pics!! (:

(^^)

Provider

2010-01-28T21:45:00.002+08:00

i was sitting on the bus to school yesterday, when i opened the pouch in front of a bag i impulsively decided to use cause i had to carry around a lot of stuff.
and i suddenly found lozenges! which was exactly what i needed, cause i've been having a slight sore throat since the weekend.

and in my heart, i could hear Him speak so clearly, "I will provide for you." and felt His presence so strongly.

and oh, how He's been there for me the past 2 days.

been driven way out of my comfort zone, and, He's teaching and molding me so much.

and how He's true to His promise, and PROVIDED so much for me.

thanks to sister eeleen and joyce! for the birthday cheesecake, for taking time to come down all the way, for the prayers! (: LOVE.
and i really thank God for my secondary school friends. who've really demonstrated to me how His heart is so for me.

album here.

LOVE YOU ((((:

they're really really cute! they hid 20 presents all around the place, and asked me to find them and put it into this box...

and there they are!! (^^)

they then took turns each to explain the symbolic meanings of their presents...

hehehe. muacks. (^^)

LUNCHBOX. my gosh, really brought back memories of us in our tooty secondary school days.. hehehehe.

i mean.. what else can i say? was so super touched i started crying. *hides*
yeah, was just blown away by their love, efforts, such SUPPORT, encouragements.
how they're so FOR you, and always believing the best of you.
and always so quick to protect, defend and bless.

thanks for everything my dears. it really really means much more to me than i can say.

a random statement that simmie dear said when she was taking a photo, "hey chris! your shirt that says "God loves Me" is really clear! very nice!"
and yupps, it struck me then, HOW TRUE.
thank you God.

20th (:

2010-01-25T22:47:00.002+08:00

full album here!

cake!!! ((:

see the pretty photos they took!!! ((: it spells "happy birthday"!!! AWWWW.
to sarah, chloe, michael and ty!
thanks so much for the really sweet present you guys made and cake! super cute la. (((:
appreciate the efforts LOADSSS! *HUGGS*

was also quite happy that when a TWC classmate, joshua, found out it was my birthday, he treated me to a cup of coffee! ahaha. (:

and THANK YOU lu jia for the birthday presents!! ((: she's really sweet! bought various little cute things (^^) awwww. (:

and thank you tai wei for desserts (X ahaha. so fattening you know!

aww, sulky unglam faces! (^^)
to everyone who wished me today, THANK YOUUUUU! deeply appreciated dears. (((((:

and i cant wait for wednesday to see my darlings! (^^)

promises (:

2010-01-25T08:57:00.002+08:00

Trust in the LORD and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.

Delight yourself in the LORD
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the LORD;
trust in him and he will do this:

He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.
(Psalm 37:3-6)

oikos

2010-01-24T00:37:00.002+08:00

THANKS SO MUCH TO MY CELL GROUP OIKOS. (((:

was really touched la (^^) and surprised too! must say that their acting skills are improving by leaps and bounds. AHAHA.

calista was like "oh, your birthday is the 29th right? it says so on my organiser! oops! shall we celebrate next week?"
and she was DARN convincing. hahaha. though.. i DID have my doubts. facebook kinda has the notifications at the side right. (o.0)

then, we played this ice breaker. where there was this part the game master shouted "now out encouragements across the room to the person whose name you picked!"
as our backs were turned away from each other, i was like "WHAT?! are you serious??" and when i spun back to ask the game master about it, they suddenly started singing the birthday song and out came the cake! HAHAHAHA.
super embarrassed. xP.
here it is!! the cake that they baked (((: PRETTY RIGHT.

ahaha, anthony shares the same birthday as me! he's gonna turn 17 this monday, awww, big boy already! (^^)
and can you see the pretty photoframe birthday card, and sunflower?? ((: plus got a necklace too!! xDD.
really sweet la (((: thanks dears!

hope my cell mate uploads the rest of the pictures soon! want the one which everyone took (^^)

am thankful to God for the time of worship during sermon. was just really good talking things out with Him. and just laying my life down at His feet, knowing that He's got good things for me, as i choose to really first love Him with everything.

a surrendered heart.

pizza hut drumlets

2010-01-23T00:29:00.003+08:00

best thing ever (^^)

stats in the morning. half boiled eggs, sinful (very buttery) toast, and coffee. PLUS i handed up my stats homework today, HALLELUJAH ((:

chilled with ee chin in the croom. great time laughing our heads off at A1. (^^) if you're free and in need of a good laugh, you can check out A1's music video of "Like A Rose". you MUST watch all the way till the end, especially when they dramatically close their eyes very slowly. (^^) best prize ever.

JUMP today was fun! can tell the games people put in alot alot of effort! loved doing the little skit thing, ahaha, i miss acting so much! maybe i'll upload the video of the skit. if i can bear to. xP.

and awww, tai wei treated me to pizza hut today for an early birthday celebration! (^^) shared soup, spicy drumlets, seafood aglio olio, "ocean's catch" pizza and ice cream! was super full after that. (o.0) had a great time, and a really meaningful conversation, and i'm glad for that. (:
thanks for everything. (:

cell tomorrow! apparently we're going to one of our cell mate's house for dinner, yay! look forward to that.
family dinner on sunday. and HELLO SEXY CLIQUE 8, i shall see youuuu on wednesday!! ((:

anyway, i'm really happy that i'm at peace with God, thank You. (:

of stem-leaf plots

2010-01-21T00:42:00.002+08:00

oh, and hahaha, nearly forgot to post this.
ty wins first prize for joke of the day. xP.

as you can see, thats a print screen of my stats homework!

and here's what ty had to say about that question...

ty: How shall I comment on the stem and leaf diagram?
The stem looks like a stem, and if I think hard enough, the zeroes look like the leaf.
Overall, the leaf is black and white….. while I think that it is interesting, I must comment that it isn’t very nice.
I’m sure it would be nicer if the leaf was green.
Also, I must say that a few flowers here and there on the stem might brighten a person’s day.
After all, variety is the spice of life and it never hurts to add a few dashes of colour here and there on various forms of plant life.
me: HAHAHAHAHA. I dare you to write that. Maybe you can stick it on a post it.
ty: I have half the mind to
me: Please do (^^)

oh, and an update? he's planning to write a proper answer, then strikethrough the nonsense bit. but not sure if he'll actually carry it out. (^^)
though i think it'll definitely crack up the teaching assistant whose marking our homework. teeheee.

sleep

2010-01-21T00:29:00.002+08:00

is great.

pasta mania with pei qi for lunch. (where i ordered aglio olio. which tasted TERRIBBBLLLEE ))): ) but anyway, apart from the icky food, was good talking to her (:
hope she stays safe on her exchange to china!! (o.O) she'll only be back during july ): so sad.

went home. plonked onto the bed, and slept super deeply from 3-6pm. have no idea why i'm so tired though!

joel and i then meet at starbucks close to 8pm for a time of stats homework. really glad we did! i've almost finished it, and he's almost done with his too! (^^) YAYYY. productive.
(and of course, bejeweled is GREAT for destressing everytime an annoying question pops up. HAHAHA.) surprising how a chai tea latte can last 3 hours. =/ usually a java chip's gone in 30 mins.

and sigh. ):

HealthZone

2010-01-20T00:24:00.002+08:00

went to HealthZone on saturday before church with tommi (my LTB group mate) to recce the place! and here's the pictures from that day. muwahaha.
full album's here.

MUWAHAHAHA. oops, sorry. xD

if you do drugs, you die. =O

gotta love the look. (^^)

funky eh.

big teeth.

audio: relax your stomach muscles... let your tummy be flabby...
tommi & i: WHAT?!?!?!
overall, it was fun (: plus we got a free soya bean drink that day! considering that our admission fee was $3, it was kinda worth it huh. (^^)

super long day today.
LTB in the morning, where i was a "mole". basically my group's teaching assistant called me up last night! and told me that for the game we had to play today, i was to act as some super domineering person who was obsessed with making sure people finished the project fast, and i would have to shoot down anyone who didnt follow my ideas. =O

and for the game today, my group had to build a bridge across the tables made out of paper, a raffia string and other random materials. was really hard insisting on my own way! (o.0) cause like, other people had really good ideas. so i'd be like "great idea! let's go with that!" and suddenly realise that i was supposed to be mean and start shouting "HURRY UP, WE NEED TO BE FAST!!"
bipolar. -.-

and my group mate tommi (who's usually our gang leader) was the other mole! but for his part, he had to be "Mr. Okay" and just agree to everything. so yeahhh, was super funny cause he ended up sulky and silent during the game. xP. and as he explained himself later "silence means okay what. ARGHHHH. hated that role!"
hahahaha. poor soul.

lunch with LTB mates at Screme, where i got to grow closer to this girl and guy, so yayyy ((: realised that during our meeting in the evening, our spirits were slightly higher than usual too. so thank God. (:

was kinda sleepy during biz law (again). but popped in sweets like medicine, and stayed ALIVEEEE. and kinda enjoyed the second half of the lesson on "Consideration"
(o.0) prof makes it interesting, so hurray. xP.

nice slack day tomorrow (: meeting pei qi for lunch at J8 (^^) and then will probably spend my day doing stats homework or flopping about my bed. lalalala.

real to me

2010-01-18T21:34:00.002+08:00

gotta love nichole nordeman's voice, especially for this one. (^^)

anyway, am really thankful to God i got the chance to go for lunch with ty and a TWC classmate. (:
divine appointments are fantastic. thanks, God. xDD.

stats homework due this fri!! AHHHHH. pray for me, that i'll have the discipline AND God-given divine revlation to figure out how to use the excel programme. =O

anyway, thats silky chomping on elmo's head. xDD

muwahahahaaa.

10ve SMU

2010-01-17T22:57:00.002+08:00

mike releases the balloons....

and up...

they goooo!! (((: (can you spot them? (^^))
koped a couple of balloons which were floating about on Patron's Day, and yupps! tried our own version of an artistic shot. wahaha.

anyway, reading on "Consideration" now for business law. and on a case about a son who was complaining that his father had distributed his assets unfairly amongst the children, the textbook writes this:

"It was his right to distribute the property as he wished and the son had no right to complain"
"In ceasing his complaints, the son was only doing what he was morally obliged to do and that was no consideration for his father's promise."

amusing huh. (^^)

more like falling in love

2010-01-13T23:55:00.002+08:00

this is hot stuffs. xDD.
More Like Falling In Love by Jason Gray

Give me rules
I will break them
Give me lines
I will cross them
I need more than a truth to believe
I need a truth that lives, moves, and breathes
To sweep me off my feet
It ought to be

More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
It's like I'm falling, oh
It's like I'm falling in love

Give me words
I'll misuse them
Obligations
I'll misplace them
'Cause all religion ever made of me
Was just a sinner with a stone tied to my feet
It never set me free
It's gotta be

CHORUS

...It's like I'm falling in love, love, love
Deeper and deeper
It was love that made
Me a believer
In more than a name, a faith, a creed
Falling in love with Jesus brought the change in me

life

2010-01-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

had a really long day in school today!

LTB in the morning. (BOY can my ltb prof talk! XP) she's really really nice, but eh, perhaps break should be pushed forward. could hear a girl's tummy rumbling besides me. xP.
watched a documentary on some antartic adventure. which i really enjoyed! (:

biz law was (0.O) for the first half of the lesson. SO BORING, AHHHHHH. i trieddd my best to stay awake! but i suddenly found myself with my eyes closed. uh oh. but after eating a mentos sweet, was better. and started class participating. hm. =/

attended a crusade senior's memorial service in the evening. although i've never met rajan, after the memorial service, i really wished i could have.
the whole memorial was just really impactful and touching. had such a bitter-sweet feel as people went up to half laugh, half cry about how he was always saying funny things, and was just a super awesome passionate and caring person.

guess the whole memorial really got me thinking about what's truly important in life. at the end of the day, achievements, status and a high GPA sure doesn't seem to count for much at all.
what really matters is how much you loved. rar rarrr.

and i think. i need to seriously place my security in Christ alone. sigh. ):

and YES! free day tomorrow! (except for LTB meeting in the evening. but at least i'll get to SLEEP IN. mmm, bliss. (^^))
and free day on thursday TOOO!!!! WHOOOOO. i so love 3 day weeks. *dances around*

sleepie time! (:

a day at home

2010-01-11T20:57:00.002+08:00

twc presentation was today. went relatively smoothly, on the bright side. could have worked on being more exciting and dynamic (i mean.. the presentation was RIGHTT at the end of class! the class looked like they were going to die already..) but still! am thankful to God la (:

CAUSE I DIDN'T COUGH AT ALL during the part i was speaking!!! (^^) coughed a bit before. eh-heh. but that was about it. God is faithful (:

enjoyed giving a more spontaneous one in the middle of class though. supposed to come up with innovative ways to use an induction cooker. so ta-dah!!
i present to you...

THE TROUSERS PRESS.

cute huh? (X
so you kinda put your trousers in it, and presto! it gets "cooked" evenly. (: no more slowly ironing! (^^)

got to pray for another christian group mate, cause he looked anxious about our iPod presentation. and he seemed better after the prayer, so yay! (: God is good.

after our presentation, a twc group mate was really encouraging to me, and gave some good advice too. am touched (:

went home after class. bathed. and the moment i laid on my bed, completely concussed and fell into deep sleep. had no idea how tired i was!

after much suffering, read through chapter 7 of Business Law on "Offer and Acceptance". (o.0) did my LTB case study reading (which i actually found really interesting!)
and am staring at chapter 3 on "Legal prcesses and instiutions". *acccckkss*

oh, and actually had a 20 min jog/walk today! xP. okay, its quite pathetic, but at least i tried!! hopefully in due time, it'll improve my chiong-ing from SOE to SOB speed. xD. wahaha.

pretty productive day, i must say. (^^) ---

"When I was weak, unable to speak,
Still I could call You by name,
And I said “Heartache Healer, Secret Keeper,
Be my Best Friend”
And You said “I Am”

...When I am weak, unable to speak,
Still I will call You by name.
“Oh Shepherd, Savior, Pasture-maker,
Hold on to my hand,”
And You say “I am.”

The winds of change,
And circumstance blow in and all around us
So we find a foothold that’s familiar,
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer
Life had begun, I was woven and spun,
You let the angels dance around the throne, who can say when,
But they’ll dance again, when I am free and finally headed home

I will be weak, unable to speak,
Still I will call You by name
“Creator, Maker, Life-sustainer,
Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer,
Lord and King,
Beginning and the End,
I Am, Yes, I Am.”"
- I Am by Nichole Nordeman

love

2010-01-10T22:34:00.002+08:00

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.
(John 15:13)

on the bus to school today, while surfing through verses, this one really struck me.

i guess the question God was asking me was whether i was really willing to "lay my life down".
i don't mean to literally die for people. but kinda like, are you willing to give up your time, your efforts, your pride, your money for the people He's called you to love?

it was a really hard choice, to say yes. but i'm glad i did. when i did, His love and presence just filled me up on that bus ride (: and i'm happy to say, i'm happy once again! (^^)

for the twc meeting today, it went well! gave them chocolates, and they seemed happy, yayy! plus we were pretty efficient and managed to practice our presentations a few times, and even came up with a rather amusing part. (i'll keep the suspense for tomorrow, hehe) and even got to pray with a christian group mate for our presentation tomorrow at the end of our practice! (:

so yeah, i'm just really thankful to God for the changes that are happening. i guess first in my heart and attitude, then in the situations around me (:

keep our TWC presentation in prayer! its tomorrow morning!! =O. pray for His favour, and for us to have fluency, and ability to speak clearly. plus lots and lots of His wisdom, grace and mercy!

cheeseburger

2010-01-09T22:41:00.004+08:00

sometimes, the things you pray for others about is specifically what you need the most. (o.0)

i guess what i need right now is Christ-like love. and a change of heart la.

to have the right attitude towards projects/cell group, to really allow God to grant me His love and grace in dealings with everything. to have God's vision instead of my own myopic perspective.

i'm really tired, physically, emotionally and spiritually. more than ever, i need His strength! so pleaseee keep me in prayer kay?

on the bright side, i got to eat a cheeseburger today for lunch, when i was really craving for it. (^^) and johnson duck for dinner! wheeee.... ((: pizza hut drumlets soon? (;

TWC meeting tomorrow!!!!! pray its efficient, and that God really grant my group and i divine wisdom, strength, favour, grace and mercccyyyyyy.
we're the first group to present (this monday!) so yeah, really need His guidance.

twc

2010-01-08T15:00:00.002+08:00

is very character building. (0.o)

RARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

meeting yesterday from 3.30 - 6.50pm?!?!! that took stamina to a whole new level.

stats this morning. character building toooooo. but not as bad as twc, i guess. cute old man, lol. got to make friends with a girl sitting besides me for stats. so thats good (^^)

lunch at this pseudo-astons place near the school admin building with a whole bunch of crusaders. and a waiter gave me a cup of jasmine green tea for free cause i was coughing. awwwwwww. (^^)

JUMP later. followed by LTB (Leadership and Team Building) meeting at 7pm. (o.O)

i wanna go home and sleeeeeepppp ): but i can't. rar rar? (#.#)

but lets not give the wrong impression. my first week of school has generally been good. TWC lesson on monday. LTB & Business Law on Tuesday. and yupps! Statistics today.
i have a feeling this sem's gonna take dependence on God to a whole new leveeellll.. but its okay, so long as He's holding my hand.

PLEASE KEEP ME IN PRAYER. my cough has lasted for far too long! it must go!!

daddy dom (:

2010-01-07T20:37:00.003+08:00

full album here.

yayyy! (X

joyce darling gave me the stitch! (:

sis e gets attacked!!

at smu (X

loves daddy dom! (:

sickie ):

2010-01-03T14:13:00.002+08:00

fell really sick! was wrecked with severe bodyaches, fever, cough, giddy spells.

and school starts TOMORROW. monday morning class - technology and world change. AHHHHH.

please please keep me in prayer yeah!!

the first day of 2010!

2010-01-02T00:32:00.004+08:00

YAYY, nicole dear finally uploaded the pics from our outing.

gotta love them!! (:

tai wei and i went to vivocity today! (: tried out this place called "Figs and Olives", which had really good mediterranean food.
see how happy he looks! xD

enjoyed myself! (: had a great time chatting, sharing testimonies and stuffs! (: and thanks for the "interactive" card, AHAHA. xDD.

long, long day tomorrow! got quite a bit of cell group things lined up. prayerfully, God'll bring my cell group closer to each other and to Him this year! (:

hello 2010

2009-12-31T21:49:00.002+08:00

thus ends the META camp us crusaders just ended.
and the end of 2009.

with the awakening at the end of 2008, when i chose to walk away from doing whatever i wanted to do (cause it really wasn't making me happy), and instead choosing His way for this year. mans. my life has really turned around.

2009 has been beyond awesome. significant events like,
- going to bible school for the first 3 months of the year.
meeting joanna, joyce, cheryl, and all our other dear tungling girls.
the great fun we had with everyone else, when we all went cycling/playing badminton! going on knees with the girls in prayer for our generation.
that eventful day when i had to lead worship, and God taught me so much!
the day that rev. david wong kim prayed over me.
how God told me specifically in that period to go to SMU Business.
acting in the skit with the 3 others for our graduation! xD.
worshipping daily! (:
- inner healing camp! where i got to learn alot, and God revealed many interesting things to me! (:
- SMU CRUSADE CAMP. where i got to join an amazing community of people who really love each other! and yeah, they've been teaching me so much in their example and conduct. love love love love love. ((:
- FTB camp. the first time God dared me to share about God in a non-christian environment! was really really scared! but i guess He was just preparing me for more. and i'm glad! (:
- every mod i've taken this sem! God's hand has always been in the picture, just taking me through the super tough difficulties!
- fantastic friends made, meeting old pals, tough times, classic-for-keeps-moments, lessons learnt, faith grown.

i have alot to be thankful to God for (:
great is Your faithfulness!

2009's resolutions were as such:
- do what He wants me to do, and do it well.
- revival in my life, and to spread it to the people around me.
- this is the year to really go OUT there and do His work (i mean, i have an 8 month break! time to use it well.)
- to put God first in everything.

and for 2010! xD.
- put my hope in the Lord alone.
- to love the Lord with EVERYTHING that i am/have!
- study hard!! and to give my best for all projects/presentations/tests! XP.
- to listen to what He wants, and to obey.
- to deepen current friendships, and to make new ones ((:

yay yay!

blessed 2010 everyone. LOVES. ((:

and here's my camp group, Jacob!

(taken before we went off for street evangelism!)
am thankful to God for all the awesome people! their love for each other and for God never fails to amaze me la, (: *HUGS*

where the love lasts forever

2009-12-27T00:45:00.004+08:00

i love marche. i love rosti. i love smoked salmon. i love crepe with strawberries and movenpick hazelnut icecream.
but most of all, i love you! (((:
*hugs to simmie, jeanne, charlotte, nicole & darshie!*
(audrey dear!! we missed you!! )): next time okay!)

great time of meeting them, and just giggling insanely about everything under the sun (: how i love girl-time.

i guess the biggest thing that blew me away today was well, how they walked in the RAIN (yes, complete with heels and dresses!!) just to accompany me!
cause my acsi classmates were at the Cathay, and us girls were stuck at Plaza Sing. with only 2 tiny umbrellas to split amongst the 5 of us, you can imagine how some of us got pretty wet! and YEAH. they walked with me justttt to see me there.

this kinda girl friends. how to find, you tell me. xP.
love love love love love love love love love you!!! (((:
(and darling, PICTURES PLEASEEE!! XDD)

hung out with my acsi classmates for a while at starbucks! but had to rush off to church really soon. and walked in the rain (again) to the bus stop. rarr!

service was really awesome today. kinda sat alone at the back, cause i came in really late (oops!). but yeah! i guess i actually felt okay, cause God kept me company the whole way.

Your mercy found me,
Upon the broken road,
And lifted me beyond my failing,
Into Your glory,
My sin and shame dissolved,
And now forever Yours I'll stand

In love never to end,
To call You more than Lord,
Glorious friend.

So I throw my life upon all that You are,
'Cause I know you gave it all for me.
And when all else fades,
My soul will dance with You,
Where the love lasts forever.

when we sang this song, i kinda had this image of God and i waltzing happily! (:
you know, just dancing together through life.

and i kinda told Him this!

i want to dance with You!
i pray it'll be a happy dance,
i know sometimes it'll be a sad one.
but no matter what, i want You to be my dance partner! (:

yeah, i know You'll lead me.

had a great cell dinner at pizza hut after service! (: just felt happy and high to be with them, yayy!!
and was just happy seeing how they liked the christmas cards i gave them. XDDD. wheee!

got auditions for the Youth Service Media short film thingy tomorrow!
& thanks for the prayer! ((:

and adora's birthday party in the evening!

long day ahead!

oikos

2009-12-27T00:26:00.002+08:00

wishes all of you a merry Christmas and a happy new year!! XDD. ahaha.

refined

2009-12-26T01:42:00.000+08:00

In the whole land," declares the LORD,
"two-thirds will be struck down and perish;
yet one-third will be left in it.

This third I will bring into the fire;
I will refine them like silver
and test them like gold.
They will call on my name
and I will answer them;
I will say, 'They are my people,'
and they will say, 'The LORD is our God.' "
(Zechariah 13:8-9)

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-25T00:48:00.002+08:00

hellloooooo all!! ((:

wishing you a really BLESSED CHRISTMAS.
may each and every one of you really get a deeper revelation of His great and awesome love for you this season! xD. (cause He really does!!! ((: )
if you wanna know more about Him, go contact me k. (email's at the side. xDD) ahahaha.

anyway! as promised:
"tai wei is a meanie poke. the end." ahahaha. xD

went to his church christmas service today! they had this skit thingy, which i found highly.. strange at some parts. aptly put, it reminded us of a channel 8 variety show. xP.
but i think the best part was when this chinese opera singer who shared her testimony! felt that both her testimony and the preacher's sermon later on was really powerful and anointed. many went up for altar call to accept Jesus! and that was awesomeeee ((:

tagged along with tai wei's cell for dinner at new york new york! they were really amusing, ahaha. must be quite a handful to handle. xD. and later, pool! we paired up and actually won!! YAYY!!! (i managed to hit about 3 in, i think!! YAYY!!)
had a really great time, thanks for the invite tai wei! (:

family's gonna take tomorrow to chill together. think my mum's planning family games. =X. maybe she means mahjong (i hope it is!) or perhaps a few rounds of table tennis. ahaha. xD.

okay time to seriously do QT and sleepie!

thanks to all for the christmas wishes, lovesss!! (:

thanks God

2009-12-24T00:49:00.002+08:00

realise i haven't blogged "properly" for the past few days! been crazily busy. and am actually really looking forward to tomorrow and Christmas itself cause thats when i can FINALLY RESTTTT (irony huh! xP)

let me TRYY to recount my days, sorry if i forget!

fri - movie marathon with mike! watched "Ink" (which i was really confused about.) and "The G-Force" (which had this emo scene cause the guinea pigs find out that they're not so "special" after all, and that they were bought at pet shops/found on the streets. xP. like.. hello?? they're guinea pigs!!) but yeah, it was fun! (:

sat - planning for the cell group party with angie and cal! cell. service. dinner with cell. taboo with cell at macs. HOME.

sun - (what DID i do on sunday..?)

mon - met ben for lunch! had really good chinese food at this place near J8. good time fellowshipping too. thanks for the encouragements (and the lunch! (: ). walked around town for a while, and we caught The Princess and the Frog!!
which is SUCH A FANTASTIC MOVIE. loved its light-heartedness (you need to laugh when you're stressed you know! xP)
it had the feel of every classic disney movie there ever was. the whole wishing upon a star, characters growing through the journey they embark on, and of course, a fantastic happily ever after. AHHHHH. (X music was awesome too, did i mention?

met simmie dear at 6.30 at novena mrt! (: ate at cedele, and had an awesome time of bimbotic-giggling, heart-to-heart sharing, and even praying for each other.
yeahhhh.. i'm just really thankful to God that i got to meet her! if anything, i think that sharing openly about weaknesses can be more uplifting than anything else. (thanks for the sweet christmas card and candy cane dear!) ((:

tues - WAS MADNESS.

10-12pm - anthony and clifford came over to rehearse for the cell group party evangelistic skit! really thank and praise God for His hand upon all of us. He gave us the storyline, and really aided me in how to direct it. He's how AWESOMEEEE la (:

12.30 - 5 pm - lunch with daddy dom!! (: white dog cafe's food is GREATTT. ahhh!!!! (((:
i guess one of the things that's always struck me about dom is his great christ-like love for others. he's always, always really going waayyyy beyond the extra mile for many.
one of the things that he said was this, "actions doesn't equate to love. love has to first be felt in your heart, before it'll translate to actions. after all, you could do have a million CIP hours and still not love."
whoah-hoooo. the challenge to love from the heart first, instead of just doing things to seem "nice". that's a high call.

5.-5.30pm - mike reaches vivocity, and dom gives us both a lift to yingxian's house for the crusade party! (:

5.30 - 7pm - christmas tree decoration/set up. emcee scripting/planning the itinerary in 10 mins. running around and praying super hard in my heart for God's strength to somehow help me survive.

7-10pm - i SURVIVEE!!! and the party went well, thank you God (: and the seniors are fantastic cooks. HAHAHA. xD. and eugene's games were fun! (: gotta love the crusade company. xDD. thanks to huimin for the opportunity in the first place to emcee! to mike for all the support, and the pretty christmas card and crazy-elmo. HAHA. xD.

wed - CELL CHRISTMAS PARTYYY!!!

i had to cry out to God a million times for help today. for strength. for wisdom. for LOVE. for patience. for.. well, everything.
and rarrr! okay, thank you God, for coming when i call!
party didn't go as planned, but for the better (: guests had fun! and got to hear the gospel. xD.
great job to cliffie and anthony! though we were supperrr tired, glad we knelt down before Him to really SEEK Him for strength for the skit.
great job to michelle too! for running the games well, xDD. wheee!!
and of course, alot of credit has to go to angie for planning the whole party like CRAZYYYYY.
to cal for the invite card designs! and for getting her aunt to loan us the place in the first place! and for the awesome sharing (:
and to everyone else!! wai kiat; testimony. tiffany; awesome goody bags. jun ye; photography. gideon; for all the suggestions he gave angie so we could improve! 2 sisters; for the help with the decorations.

thank God that gradys and her friend valerie came! glad to see that they enjoyed themselves! had an especially good time with them during the small group sharing. glad we could come clean with each other, and just be really honest. always appreciate that. (((:
GRADYS darling!!! we have YET to properly meet up and girl-talk!!! )))): we must okay!!

and here's a verse that's really encouraged me. (:

May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word.
(2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)

& You said "I Am"

2009-12-24T00:33:00.002+08:00

I Am by Nicole Nordeman

Pencil marks on a wall, I wasn't always this tall
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed
You watched my team win
You watched my team lose
Watched when my bicycle went down again
And when I was weak, unable to speak
Still I could call You by name
And I said, Elbow Healer, Superhero
Come if You can
You said, I Am

Only sixteen, life is so mean
What kind of curfew is at 10pm?
You saw my mistakes
And watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I'd never love again
And when I was weak, unable to speak
Still I could call You by name
And I said Heartache Healer, Secret Keeper
Be my best friend
And you said, I Am

You saw me wear white by pale candlelight
I said forever to what lies ahead
Two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
Too much it might seem when it is 2am
And when I am weak, unable to speak
Still I will call You by name
Shepherd, Savior, Pasture Maker
Hold onto my hand
You say, I Am

The winds of change and circumstance blow in and all around us
So we find a foothold that's familiar
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer

When life had begun, I was woven and spun
You let the angels dance around the throne
And who can say when, but they'll dance again
When I am free and finally headed home
I will be weak, unable to speak
Still I will call You by name
Creator, Maker, Life Sustainer
Comforter, Healer, my Redeemer
Lord and King, Beginning and the End

I Am
Yes, I Am

fear not

2009-12-22T13:05:00.001+08:00

Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
(Isaiah 41:10)

promise

2009-12-20T18:16:00.003+08:00

Father, glorify thy name.
Then came there a voice from heaven, saying,
I have both glorified it,
and will glorify it again.
(John 12:28)

meepies ):

2009-12-19T22:43:00.003+08:00

i'm bwheeeerryyy tireddddd.

unless You come save the day; save MY day, and let me hear You,
how could i go on?

some wisdom, please. strength. security. hope. focus. love. discernment. peace of mind. clarity. power to kick the devil's butt.

yes, all of that.

and that the works of my hands which You've called me to do, may not be in vain!
surely, this isn't all there is.
there is more, and i wanna be there to see it when You come and rain on this desert land.

am back!

2009-12-16T22:46:00.004+08:00

am back from hong kong/shenzhen! touched down at midnight 2 days ago, eh-heh. xD.

weather was fantastic. food was great in hong kong (but didn't like shen zhen's ): )
did a biitttt of shopping, but not that much, cause the things in hong kong are quite expensive!

took the train. visited a whole bunch of places. toured "around the world" in 3 hours. and even got a "romantic ride into the sunset". ahahaha. xD

i've been editing the photo colours like MADDDD and i'm still on day 2!! ))X the number of pictures taken is just MADNESS. (i think my whole comp's slowing down even. =.=)

a picture says a thousand words.
day one.
day two.

here's some pictures from the first 2 days! (: (more will be uploaded when i'm done with them. =/)

day 1:
at hk airport

hoi pang seafood!

the best dinner EVER (((:

why oh why! xD

gotta love this shot.

sis and i.

its really cold at the peak of the mountain!

night market!

street food! ((:
day 2:
wheeee..
along the streets of hong kong!
at repulse bay!
we heart starbucks xD
boat ride!
pretty huh!
"pretend that we're talking!!" - me
mtr ride to shenzhen
at a chinese med place
outside windows of the world!
its falling!
love the architect
"hurry smile! the tram's leaving soon!" - dad
in "egypt"
dad and i! (:
my sis likes lizards
grand canyon
love this shot (:
"hao he!"
pretty right!! (:
we're being eaten!

yupps. this is it! the "romantic ride". xD.---overseas family trip aside, went for the LASSTT day of youth camp today! caught the sermon. stayed around to watch their tribe cheers. xD.
and cliff, anthony and i head off to thomson plaza's kfc for lunch. or so we thought.

ended up spending almost 4 hours there! really had a great time of being honest with each other. we could take turns really encouraging each other in Christ-like love, and helping to strengthen each other. i guess, also sharing about our struggles helped us to realise that we weren't alone in feeling.. spiritually tired.

yeah, all 3 of us were.

we took the time to pray for each other too, at the end of sharing and stuffs. (: am really thankful to God for these 2 awesome brothers-in-christ. for their transparency and sincerity.

and yupps! we really need to take that kinda christ-like love and attitudes back to our cell group! (:

next week's beginning to look pretty bussyyy! have about 4-5 plans already!
btw, joyce and joanna, are we meeting this thurs/fri!! (X
hurry come back mike, we've all yet to crash your house!

before i go, these verses have spoken to me alot the past few days.

Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
(Isaiah 40:28-31)

Parenthood 101

2009-12-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

yeah man, talk about "training" to be a parent. this kids camp was definitely a great challenge.

and i loved every moment of being with the kids.

admittedly, i had some kids that were hard to handle! but i REALLY thank and praise God for giving me the muccchhh needed strength, grace and love when i needed. this camp, He really taught me alot about love. that, i guess, the real challenge of love is when the kid doesn't seem to respond to what you're doing for him/her. but to still press on in loving and encouraging.

and, God's faithful. could see how some of them really changed over the course of this camp, and i'm so super awed by how good God is. not only to the kids' lives, but also to me, by letting me see visibly that God's love really makes a difference in their lives!! (:

great time learning how to interact with the children. finding out more about their lives, playing with them, watching them learn to worship God, seeing them open up and having fun during games.

the most impactful moment of the entire camp was when the teachers (aka us) were on our knees at the altar. and the kids were supposed to now pray for their teachers.

2 prayed for me.

a little girl by the name of jolene, whom i had been spending some time with, especially since she's not from the church and is quite new, came up to me crying and grabbing my hand.
her love for me blew me away.
as she knelt and cried out to God "Dear Lord, please protect jie jie christabel. please send your angels around her, and guide her every step..."
i've never felt that kinda depth of sincerity before in my life. never before had i met another person who was crying so desperately to God for me. needless to say, i hugged and cried with her too. sigh, mans..

the second one blew me away again. the quietest girl in the whole group actually came up to pray for me. i couldn't believe it. i couldn't believe with my own eyes what God had done for her, that she actually plucked up the courage to pray for me. the love of God for both her and me just really amazedddddd me.

can't remember specifically which girl prayed for which point, but they were praying that i would always seek God. that He'll bless me in my studies, teach me to love my family even more, and that He would be with me. mans.. God's really good la. (:

all good and nice things aside, suddenly became super emotionally down at the end of camp!! )): the very things i had been teaching my kids about, about finding security in Christ alone, i started to struggle with. but yups, as i began to talk about the works He's done, His joy came back and flooded me again.
SO YES, PLEASE KEEP ME IN PRAYYERRRR.

and some thank yous!
kor kor tai yong. for giving us the opportunity in the first place!! (x
jie jie joyce. for coming!!! REALLY REALLY love this girl. your presence means the world to me dear, so thankful to God you could be with me in this!! you've been a really good jie jie la, writing so many cards to your kids ((X
kor kor daniel. for seriously being one of the most selfless person i've ever met. though he seriously spoils the little girls la! helping them do their work so much! XP. thanks for being a great role model and example, not only to the kids, but also to me!
kor kor jonathan! for helping us handle our group's children!! was at a serious loss at time, and am really thankful that you were around to teach/manage them!!!
and of course, God.
for coming when i call to you for strength, wisdom, love. for being with me, with the teachers, with the children. i love You!! (:
---
will be in hong kong/china 10th - 14th! keep my family in prayer, that we'll be safe okay!! (:

rain

2009-12-06T00:22:00.005+08:00

Sow for yourselves righteousness,
reap the fruit of unfailing love,
and break up your unplowed ground;
for it is time to seek the LORD,
until he comes
and showers righteousness on you.
(Hosea 10:12)

i'm trusting in You and Your word.

that You'll surely rain (and rain and rain and rain) down on my life in abundance, that i may overflow to the others around me! (:

am bringing about 10 packs of stickers to the kids camp. and several Beni Bear letter pads. AHAHA. xD. talk about well-equipped. alright, remember to pray for the camp!! (:

2012

2009-12-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

WAS DARN AWESOME. you so so so must catch it. lovedddd it to bits.
the graphics were AMAZING. plus the storyline, i felt, was very well-developed too (:
enjoyed every moment of it.

mike: CHRIS HOW HOW?? the wave is gonna hit them!!!!
me: then they die. boom. end of movie.

hahah, and of course, they escaped the big scary wave that was about to smash them into mount everest! xD.

on a random note, the movie is very unbiblical in the sense that God's promised He would never ever send a huge flood to destroy the earth ever again. and the rainbow's a sign of that promise! XD. so yes, 2012 won't happen, teehee.

had Broadcast & Entertainment radio training from 9am-5pm today. i thought i'd be super bored and sian, but to my surprise, i actually really enjoyed it.
realised i have ALOT to work on!!! like, my delivery is o.0. and my voice projection was HORRIBLE. plus i need to sound less emotional when reading the news especially. xP.
buttt, on the bright side, also discovered a bit of my strengths! (: that i'm not that bad in advertisement writing. (you WON'T believe what i had to advertise, xP.)
had fun doing the pair segment with mike too. (X ---

You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.
(Isaiah 26:3)

tai yong's kids camp starts on sunday for prep, and the kids are coming in on monday!
PLEASE PLEASE keep me (and all of us involved!!) in prayer. we're gonna teach the kids about hearing God's voice. but of course, you can't possibly teach something unless you first do it.
pray for me, that i'll have a quiet, still heart before God. for a greater anointing of the gift of discernment and prophecy. and most most importantly, for God to REALLY grant me the Christ-like love for the kids, to be able to see their needs and to act in love, grace, and with His wisdom and strength. that kids lives will be transformed, and that God's glory may fall in this camp and in their lives.

anyway, i think God's really using this song to speak to me. was just listening to it while waiting for my bus. and i then decided to look at my favourite phone application, which gives you random bible verses each time you press refresh. xDD.
AND BAM.

Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.
(Deuteronomy 6:5)

confession? i didn't do quiet time last night, cause i was busy doing other "things".
and from what happened this morning, i'm beginning to see what it means when God says He's a jealous God. He really really loves ME so much, that He doesn't want anything to stand between us.

rarrrrr.... *goes to God for a hug*

DG IN JAPAN

2009-12-03T18:03:00.003+08:00

full album here

(or not.) ahahaha. xD.

DG went out today to celebrate cheryl's birthday! ((: had a great time with them. they're darn cute. xD.
good food, good people.
what more could you ask for? ((:

anyway, i just got infatuated with buttons. AHHHH!!!!!
bought a whole bag of them. ahahaha.
okay, sorry. xDD

of peace

2009-12-03T00:56:00.002+08:00

can't stop smiling, my exams are overrrr!!!!!!
YESSSS HURRAY WHEEEEEEEEEEE....

i think the verse below's been something that God's used to really speak to me throughout this whole period.

(reblog this here. xD)
yeah, i mean, truth be told, i had my moments of panic. ESPECIALLY when chionging through financial accounting, with only a few days to mug everythhhinggg. i looked at the amount, and i really nearly had a heart attack.

my prayer throughout this whole period was really for peace! and SUCCCHH wisdom. and of course, a divine intervention of sorts, that i would be able to finish studying everything in time.

and He's really very very faithful la. could really feel His presence with me the whole past 2 weeks, as i studied. everytime i went "oh dear", immediately He would gently prompt me to look back at Him, and to seek Him for the wisdom and SUCH grace i desperately needed.
(AND His provision! sis bought snacks, mum bought stickers, sis got her math tutor to teach me, i got to tutor a classmate [which totally helped me revise and made things clearer!], friends generously sending me accounting exam papers/textbook answers, random good food my parents buy back..)

today's calculus exam was probably the most hilarious. it was crazy difficult!! i was like (o.0) when i saw the questions. i was like "my goshhh...." and once again, in His mercy, He poked me and told me to just do what i can.
the best part was this question:

y = x ^ x
dy/dx = ? (8 marks)

yeah. hahahaha. i sent an SOS "God, i need your help BIG TIME. divine revelation pleasee!!!!" and He calmed me down, and prompted me to "ln" both sides. and from there, use substitution to differentiate it.
LET ME TELL YOU MY GOD IS THE BEST MATH TUTOR AROUND. DON'T MESS.
hahahahaha. i'd NEVER have thought of doing THATTTT. (i've never even tried a question like that in my LIFE.)

am leaving the results for my exams to God. not sure what i'd get! but whatever it is, i know that He's definitely faithful. ((((:
---
am thankful also for the many God-given opportunities over this semester to pray for people, especially non-christians. and in tiny ways, to be a blessing to them. ((X
pray with me for open hearts in smu, that there WILL be a harvest in His kingdom! and pray for the christians (and myself!!) that He'll grant us His grace to live godly lives, living a life of His mercy and love. and to have boldness like never before to step out, and to bring His harvest in.
---
on a different note, met ron and sanaya at 7pm today!! (eugene couldn't join us, he had a friend's party on he initially forgot about! ))X )
anyway, we caught "The Informant"! lol, it was super cheem. for the first 30 mins, i had to ask ron "do.. do you know what's going on?" to which he'd answer "must watch more first to find out."
but yeah, ahahaha, after a while, finally got the hang of what was going on. the main character had some bipolar problem, and thus the whole movie was filled with the thoughts of his head. you'd start the show thinking he's kinda dumb.. but towards the end, you begin to realise that he's actually the smartest, evilest liar of them all. xP.
quite a cool show.

happened to meet asher at the Cathay basement! lol. was nice seeing him after so many months! (X

sanaya, ron and i had wanton mee for dinner, and shared about our holiday plans. and later on, ron gave me a lift back! *does a jig* i always feel so thrilled when i get rides home, ahaha. xD.

and so, here's my holiday plans:
6-9th - Children's Camp (at tai yong's church. joyce and joel will be going for it too! (:)
10-14th - Family Trip to Hong Kong/China (disneyland!! hope to buy some stitch stuffs. hehe.)
15-16th - Youth Camp (held at RJC. talk about convenient. xD)
28-30th - Metamorphosis (campus crusade camp! (:)

WHICH MEANS, oh sexy people, please ask me out 17-27th!! (((X.
(clique 8 christmas gathering on the 26th dec, tentatively right? (:
and mahjong please! ty, sarah, chloe, know how to play? xD. plus, we're supposed to crash mike's house to game huh. xD.
jeanne/nicole: tea/shopping any time?
simsie: hot date when! xD
joyce/joanna/cheryl: timbre timbre! must bring james & jeremy along also! (:
6.13: EHHHH, fab or tay, this time round you guys organise leh! xD)

thanks God, for holding me near. (:

timely reminder

2009-12-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
(Isaiah 41:10)

tired!!

2009-11-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

whoo, am really exhausted. was teaching a friend calculus today, while attempting to study graph sketching. XP.

and there we go! horizontal and vertical asymptotes ftw!

Realised the thing about teaching is that I HAVE to stay calm, and I had to constantly tell her 'oh don't worry, it's easy.. See? You just got the answer! just apply the formula for everything, and ta-dah!!!'
LOL

but am thankful to God la, that I had this opportunity to help.. After all, hehe, so many people have helped me before, it's about time I passed it on (:

anyway, PLEASE keep me in prayer!! (& my friends who have stats/calculus too!)
last lap, last lap!!! SO close to freedom, AHHHH!!!!

AHHH!!

2009-11-30T00:34:00.001+08:00

this is supperrr cute *screams* you MUST watch it. xDDDDD.

gotta love esp the "you will die, DIE, DIE!!!" rap. xDDD.

take me away

2009-11-28T21:25:00.002+08:00

take me away by lifehouse

This time, what I want is you
There is no one else, who can take your place
This time, you burn me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away

I've seen it all and it's never enough, it keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away

I try, to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all, it was never enough, it keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away

Don't give up on me yet, don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet, but don't let me stay here alone

This time, what I want is you
There is no one else, who can take your place
I've seen enough and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away
Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away

oh thank God. sis got her math tutor to tutor me for one lesson yesterday!! and he REALLY is quite good, taught me integration (eh, stop laughing. its higher level/H2 math stuff okay, things like 'integration by parts'. =X)

led worship for cell today! and we sang "shout to the Lord". ahaha. thank God for pulling me through that mans. xP. and for anthony! who's really a fantastic guitarist, and is super experienced and professional at helping noobs like me. xP.

anyway, one of the verses during sermon that struck me today was this:

I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance.
I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false.
You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary.
Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love.
(revelation 2:2-4)

just last week, as i was walking along the road to church and thinking about God, i felt like skipping (actually i did. xP. only a bit though.) and i was thinking to myself "this is what its like to be in love."
the whole deal. sun shining down on your face, you can't stop smiling, and your heart feels fuzzy and warm.

and just this weeeekkk, i started feeling so tired! ))):

rarrrghhhhhh. wouldn't it be great to fall in love with God anew every day? (:

rar rar

2009-11-27T00:34:00.002+08:00

hello. first and foremost, God i need You to help me to put You first!

"You're my defender, the shield of my heart."
- hiding place by starfield

i really need to hold onto that! i don't know why i started getting so emo-y suddenly today, (#.#)

anywayyy!!! was mugging bgs like crazy yesterday.

thank God for the strength mans.
and for amazing provision the past week (aka mum suddenly popped into my room and dumps 3 packets of PRETTY STICKERS onto my table. sis treats me to a box of salmon sushi while i'm studying FA over the weekend. and just yesterday, i suddenly had all kinda snacks sitting on the table, cause mum went on a snack-shopping spree. wheeee....)
God knows what my trigger-happy needs are. xDD.

bgs exam was okay today! thank God i studied! alot were kinda tricky, so if i hadn't read through, i'd have been clueless.
after bgs, had lunch with ty, joel and bryan (year 1) at ymca~

presenting to you... avocado salmon!
is that or IS that the most gorgeous thing ever. i never knew avocado would be so tasty!! (:
only prob's that the portion's kinda small though. so people like ty were grumbly, ahahaha. lunch was crazy. the 3 of them went on some crazy pun-rampage today. had a good laugh. xD.

we took today off to chill, and "played pool". *cough* i was so bad!! haiyo. xP.
our pool game took AGESSS to finish (we only completed 2 games in an hour. *shakes head*) but it was fun la ((:

suddenly got a couple of invites to go out with acsi friends today! but so sorry, had a bad headache, so couldn't join any activities in the end. spent my afternoon/early evening just sleeping in. ):

and thank God for sis. xD. she sat with me for more than an hour in the night solving integration problems with me, and trying to teach me. ahaha. and she's so resourceful too! her math tutor agreed to teach both of us tomorrow, whee.

I CANNOT WAIT FOR EXAMS TO BE OVER. AHHHHHHHH.
got a million activities lined up for december (including a movie outing with my bgs group! we're going to watch "Capitalism: A Love Story". talk about a 'romantic date', LOLL. perhaps we should bring along our notebooks to take notes too. xD)

BUT in the meantime, i shall study hard for calculus!! please pray for me to have ALOT ALOT of wisdom. its really a killer subject for me ): thank youuuu.

SYC Concert

2009-11-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

Find out more details HERE.
basically, if you order through my friend, benlee, you'll get a $5 discount for the $30 ticket! (yupps, means you only pay $25. xD)
contact him @ acsi_rulez@hotmail.com ! ((:

strange

2009-11-24T19:59:00.003+08:00

i find this video strangely captivating. HAHAHAHA. you MUST watch it. sis made me see it.
you gotta love the part where he does the world peace sign.

FA IS OVER.

and its.....
BGS-time!!!

(keep me in prayer alright! bgs (business, government and society) this thursday and calculus 2nd dec!)

& everything i want is everything you are

2009-11-23T00:14:00.003+08:00

May by Lifehouse

I'm standing
I'm waiting
I'm falling more in love with you
Every time I find myself here
And what I feel for you
It can't be contained
And how I long for you to come
I want to get carried away by you

And everything I want is everything you are
Everything I am is yours
It's yours and yours alone
Everything I want you are

I've got nothing to lose except myself
I can do without cause I'll just get in your way
So here I am I know it's not a lot
But all of it is yours
And by letting go I felt so much more

Everything I want is everything you are
Everything I am is yours
It's yours and yours alone
Everything I want is everything you are
And everything I am is yours
It's yours and yours alone
It's yours and yours alone
It's yours and yours alone
It's yours and yours alone

I am standing
I am waiting
I'm following
With hopes of getting closer
I'd do anything
I am running
Not sure where I'm going
And going as fast as I can
And I'm trusting
That you'll lead me
And carry me the rest of the way

Everything I want is everything you are
Everything I am is yours
It's yours and yours alone
Everything I want is everything you are
And everything I am is yours
It's yours and yours alone
It's yours and yours alone
It's yours and yours alone
It's yours and yours alone
Yours and yours alone

Everything I want is everything you are
Everything I am is yours
It's yours and yours

RARRGH.

2009-11-20T21:29:00.002+08:00

i'm definitely going to grow fat by the end of this exam period.
snacking like crazy!

can't wait for all this to be over. (#.#)
2nd dec, please come quick.

church tomorrow!! (:
but gonna have to skip cell, really need the time to rush fa. RARR.

wisdom xp

2009-11-19T21:39:00.001+08:00

If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God,

who gives generously to all without finding fault,

and it will be given to him.

But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt,

because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea,

blown and tossed by the wind.

That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord;

he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
(James 1:5-8)

the battle

2009-11-19T00:14:00.002+08:00

bryan: the pen is mightier than the sword
tai yong: but my curved rule is mightier than the pen.
bryan: no its not! *brandishes a pen*
tai yong: *wields curved rule*
and the battle ensues...

*wrestle wrestle*

*snatch snatch, whacks with pen and curved rule*

tai yong giggles.

and i'm seriously trying to refrain from blogging about the jokes today. *twitches in seat in suppressed silence* AHAHAHAHA.

free beancurd and you tiao given out by the school of business comm. today! (:

you gotta love these little things in smu, that make school what it is. (:

for every season

2009-11-18T10:54:00.002+08:00

"To everything there is a season,

A time for every purpose under heaven:

A time to be born,
And a time to die;

A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;

A time to kill,
And a time to heal;

A time to break down,
And a time to build up;

A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;

A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;

A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to gain,
And a time to lose;

A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;

A time to tear,
And a time to sew;

A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;

A time to love,
And a time to hate;

A time of war,
And a time of peace....

I know that whatever God does,
It shall be forever.
Nothing can be added to it,
And nothing taken from it.
God does it, that men should fear before Him."
(Ecclesiastes 3:1-8,14)

"studying"

2009-11-16T22:54:00.004+08:00

attempts to study.
stressed hair.

*PPFFTHHH*

mike studies... standing up on a chair?!

chocolate cigarettes ftw.

comments on the photo album i posted on facebook Sanaya Sinhaa
are u even studyin??!?!?!?!
Michael Keshev Naidu
"i'm not crazy, i'm just a little unwell, i know, right now you can't tell" xD

collected mine and ty's management comm results today! and thank God, i got an A- ((:
He was really there for me from the start to the very end! xD.

on a random note, SEE TY, I TOLD YOU TO WEAR A WHITE SHIRT. xP.
white shirt. dark coloured tie. classic ftw xD.

sat with mike in the croom today to attempt to study. ARGHH. did my part for BGS, had to google i dont know how many articles once more. but at least i've whacked it.

and tried doing FA. did a few questions, but was really feeling so exhausted ):

dinner with a senior. and i'm so crap at giving "love advice" xP.

"does she like you?"
"yes she does."
"THEN YOU WAITING FOR WHAT?! ASK HER TO BE YOUR GIRLFRIEND, i mean, *coughcough* how about praying about it?"

xD
first prize. ahahaha.

had a good time sharing/praying for/being encouraged by. thanks (X

long, long day tomorrow. keep me and my financial accounting and BGS group in prayer as we meet tomorrow please!!
need lots of wisdom and strength for the 2 papers. RARRRR.

fund raising!

2009-11-15T22:25:00.002+08:00

fund raising today for youth service missions!
made these posters for our stall last night. xD. cute huh.

rarrrr. bgs and fa work to do. and stuffs to study for. exams on 24th, 26th nov and 2nd dec. MEEPS.

keep me in prayer kayyyyyyy. xie le.

by faith

2009-11-14T00:07:00.009+08:00

during worship today (which mike led!(X ) i took a good look back at the past 13 weeks of my SMU life.
wow. what a rollercoaster, and HOW He's been holding my hand and heart through it all.

He's really really blessed me with just so much. and even in the tough (crazy, and even heartbreaking) times, He's seen me through. and proved faithful when i was faithless.

today was a great day! (:
lunch with mike, chloe and ty at plaza sing. flipped through magazines for a good half hour at Times bookstore with them (hehehe). wrote "appreciation" cards for crusade friends/seniors. and went for Jump! (:

was super happy to see sister eeleen!! XDD. giggling and teasing her aside, we took some time to share/encourage/pray for each other.
am always super encouraged by the stuff she says (: realised today how much i miss and love her, rarrrr.

as it was "appreciation day" for Jump, we had to go around well, appreciating people. and i realised i'm actually quite shy to say. (#.#) as in.. really lor. xP. i know i have the tendency to be overcome with emotion and start sniffling in gratitude. hahaha.

but yes! i really thank God for godly friends and seniors, who demonstrate SUCH inspiring Christ-like love in everything. in the loving way they relate to other christians and non-christians. and how their hearts are always so sold out for God. their quickness to want to pray for you, to find ways they can bless you and help you.

so much to learn from them! rarrrrr!

on a different note, claire and i thank michael for sharing your starbucks voucher with us today. hehehe. java chip and muffin ftw. xDD
and thanks ty for the treat too, i really appreciate! (((:

and to end off my day, my cell member clifford just called to say that the verse i sent was encouraging. which was exactly what God knew i needed to hear.
been sending out sms verses of late, and started wondering if it was really Spirit-led, and if they were speaking life into people. so yeahh.. guess God's kinda saying "yes they are la. relax. xP"

God knows me way too well (:

and this verse spoke to me this morning!
i want to, God (:

of confidence

2009-11-12T22:26:00.002+08:00

taking a jog with my dog and sis was SO not a "walk in the park".
(and yes, i actually "tried" jogging. xP)
and it was traumatic to say the least!

sis and i found it strange that my dog kept on sitting down and refusing to move after a while. and we started getting freaked out when my dog tugged on the leash very hard, and wanted to dash onto the busy road!

it was only after my sis started carrying the dog and we wanted to head home that we realised what was wrong.

MY DOG HAD ANTS ALL OVER HIM, AHHHH!!!!

i never saw such true love. my sister refused to put him back down on the floor although i was screaming "put him down!! you're getting bitten!! PUT HIM DOWN!!" and she said "NOO!! what if he gets more ants! what if he tries to dash across the road!"

we tried to kill some ants by pouring a bottle of water on him, but it wasn't working. and she only let him go when i said "fine! i'll carry him!"

and as i carried and walked (and yes, got bitten a few times by those bugger ants) she kept on patting the dog the whole way and holding his paw to comfort him.

as my dog is REALLY fat, we had to take turns carrying him. great for biceps building. our arms still ache till now. xP.

for the last part on the way home, she SPRINTED carrying him in her arms, cause he was itching all over, and she didn't want him to suffer any longer.

looking at that, i mean, mans. such love.

i guess it really reminded me, funnily enough, of God's love for us.
the whole "NOOO, i'm NOT GOING TO LET YOU GO!!!" and doing WHATEVER it takes, even if it hurts Him, to get us home. so we can be okay.

the strangest thing is? my sister ran into the house first, tugging on the dog's leash to get him into the shower quick! but he paused several times, wanting to make sure i was going into the house too, and that i was okay.

as i type this, i know i'm going to sound crazy, but i'm tearing.
that my dog should care so much for ME, when i was (obviously) more worried about my sister's arms than about him.

i guess its kinda like how much God really loves me? and i completely don't deserve His love. i don't "deserve it" cause i didn't love Him that much by either my actions/words/thoughts. but it doesn't matter what i've done, His heart is REALLY FOR me. no matter what.

hahaha. crazy, i know.

anyway, i'm really excited for tomorrow cause sister eeleen's coming to crusade!! (: to kinda explain about the worship module for Meta 2009 (our crusade camp at the end of this year! xD)

tumblr

2009-11-11T21:11:00.002+08:00

HEY FOLLOW ME ON TUMBLR XDD
http://of-rainbows.tumblr.com/

treehouse lunch with ty, joel and mike!
JUST WHEN WE THOUGHT WE COULD ESCAPE from our weekly tradition of going to treehouse. it haunts us! xP

sat at the stairwell with joel and ty while they took turns playing the guitar and singing christian songs. (couldn't really sing along though, the range was too high! ):)

ty and i got our management comms video today! (: actually crashed the class to get our videos. ingenious huh. xD.

on a random note, as we were walking along the concourse, he said "hi" to 5 guy friends while i only said "hi" to 2 girl friends! and so started the competition of "who has more friends". hahahaha.
okay, fine, he won.
he said hi to 8 guys and 1 girl.
while i only said hi to 2 girls and 2 guys.
booooo. ):

okay, calculus and bgs time!

happiness

2009-11-10T20:09:00.002+08:00

at the end of our final BGS lesson (oh the heartbreak!), the prof leaves us with a few parting words.

prof: in a study conducted by harvard university on happiness, they surveyed nuns to find out what made them so happy.
girl classmate: i know why! they don't have men in their lives!

HAHAHAH. (no, seriously, she said that.)
okay, maybe you're not laughing. maybe cause you're a guy. xP.

laughter aside, the prof then goes on to tell us the findings about happiness.

1. be a real human.
in other words, cry/laugh when you want to. show your feelings.
2. there is no co-relation between the happiness and the money in your bank account.
3. make things simple and easy.
do less things, but enjoy them more.
4. be grateful for what you have.

you gotta love this prof. (X.

anyway, after visiting my sister's church on saturday, to see how sis is doing there and all, mans. it was such an eye-opener. the people there were just bubbling over with joy and love. really helped make me, a first-timer, feel comfortable almost immediately.

guess that kinda challenged me about being cheerful and friendly! i was really really dao in my acsi days, only sticking to my classmates and not daring to make friends with people from other classes much.
but yeahh.. if i continue that even in smu, i highly doubt i can be a good testimony that way! ):

yupps! am really going to try and love more. and be more smiley. xP
not with my strength, but with God's of course.

of pictures

2009-11-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

hahahaha. a picture speaks a thousand words. xD.

taken at cafe duty

SO CUTE RIGHT. hahaha.
cliff's 17, and anthony is 16.
girls looking for "house-husbands", be sure to take down their numbers...
hahaha, okay, kidding. xD

yepps. coffee-girl serving you!

drew the bottom part! (:

taken at the croom

click here to see the full graph done by tai yong, dedicated to trinette. =O

taken during my Financial Accounting Quiz today

click here to see the full sized!

yeah, you gotta love the crazy things/people in life (:

faith

2009-11-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

"if you can't see the hand of God,
then at least trust in His heart."

"go, for I'll surely be with you."

i'm taking Your word for it, Lord!

crusade!

2009-11-06T21:57:00.002+08:00

made a digital scrapbook for joyce darling's birthday! ((:

click here to see the full album. xD

anyway, joyce dear crashed smu today!! ((: joyce and i joined a bunch of crusade people (ty, jie hao, bryan, bobby and eugene) for lunch at astons!

following that, both of us trooped off to city hall to shop for her friend's birthday present (the irony huh. hehehe.)

and yes yes! the exciting highlight of the day!
i did street evangelism for the FIRST TIME in my lifeeee!!
we (us freshmen) were all paired up with seniors, and (prayerfully) had to give goodie bags to people. and hopefully, if they're open, pray for them and share Christ.

i was really scared at first! so for the first pair of girls we approached, rachel basically had to demonstrate to us how it's done, while joyce and i stood at her side and nodded supportively. hahahah. (and prayed in our hearts, okay! xP)

for the second girl, rachel approached again. but this time, guess i plucked up my courage, and spoke a bit too! and so did joyce! the 3 of us took turns sharing testimonies about how awesome God's been to us (((x

i'm thankful to God that both times we approached, the girls seemed receptive, and allowed us to pray for them. although they haven't accepted Christ, i trust that He's used us to sow seeds into their lives. (X

when we gathered back into the room with other crusaders, i was sharing with a senior about what happened! he also shared about how he's been evangelising to a friend for many years, and had become good friends with this person. and i guess God prompted to pray for this senior's friend. the moment i started praying however, i was really overwhelmed, and started crying for this person.

somehow or other, in that moment, i could feel God's heartbeat for my senior's friend. that as much as we want this person to know Him, God wants it more than any of us!

later on, joyce and i popped by chloe and mike's law group project meeting! and i passed this lil snack thingy to cheer them on. hahaha. when i found out however, that their meeting was ending in 5 mins, i was so embarrassed!! like my goodness. (#.#)

but i guess God really has His purposes for leading us to do stuffs. cause i later found out from mike that a non-christian group project mate was shocked, and asked "where's your friends from?" and when mike replied "campus crusade", this friend said "someday, i'll join that cca too."

when mike shared that, that seriously blew me away. i never really realised how Christ-like love draws others too!

"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."
(john 15:34-35)

God's just been extremely faithful. although i was admittedly disappointed that we didn't actually see anyone get saved today, He showed me in other ways how He's in complete control. and that He IS at work in people's lives. (:

thanks goes out to joyce for joining me today! glad we could have gone on this mini street-e together dear. xDD. *HUGGS*

pray for me to really be completely covered in His love tomorrow. and wisdom. patience. and ALOT OF GRACE. how i truly need God in this situation!

Army talk

2009-11-06T00:19:00.004+08:00

It's always amusing finding out more about people. xp
I guess i'm especially interested in why they behave the way they do, hehh

dg today was good. our dg leader, Shirley, is really awesome la. always full of grace, plus I guess I'm glad she's older and alot more mature than the rest of us. And she seems so secure in Christ. quite amazing watching her.

bgs was spent kinda doing some work. And figuring out our hypothesis, LOL. We win first prize seriously!! XP
but it's really not our fault that everyone has differing views on trade and income inequality, is it? heh-heh

Joyce is coming to smu tomorrow!!! (x so exciting, wheee!!

the semester is coming to it's end. in a few weeks, it'll be our final exams! =O
looking beyond the dreaded exams though, I can't wait for december already! have 3 camps lined up, plus we're all supposed to crash mike's house to game. Ahaha. It's my secret (okay, now not so secret) dream that we can go cycling!! XD please please please?

I think we're going to be doing street evangelism tomorrow! Which is kinda scary for me cause I've seriously never shared Christ with a stranger before=x
God, grant us discernment! your anointing, wisdom, grace and love in our speech and actions. And soften the hearts You're gonna send us to, that they'll be ready to accept Your word, and accept You as their God. Grant us SUCH courage, and we trust that You'll go before us!
(:

keep us all in prayer okay! Pray for smu, that there'll be a great harvest and a revival. (x

keep me in prayer regarding having wisdom too. and to discern what He'd have me do even in the scary days to come.. rarrrr.

"i have a dream"

2009-11-04T22:44:00.003+08:00

He said: "Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's....
You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.' "
(2 Chronicles 20:15,17)

read this verse this morning on the bus to school.
and found it really apt! for several things i'm going through right now. i think even what tai yong casually said today rang true too. he said "aiya, these kinda things don't need to stress one. i just lift up the camp to God lor, He'll take care of it. its His name what."

which brings to mind this verse too!

Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
(Ephesians 6:13)

yeah, i really need to just stand firm in Him.
been so shaky recently.

i was just praying this morning, wondering if God'll hear me. wondering if He'll choose not to bless me, and will forsake me cause i was such a crappy person the other day.
and, i was reminded of this verse suddenly "never will i leave you, never will i forsake you."
and i'm like "'never' really means never, right? God, you say one ah."
and prayed that God, somehow or other, use me today. bless my mang comms speech, and help me to be a testimony.

and i really must say, God is faithful.

i re-arranged the paragraphs of my speech late last night, and hadn't rehearsed the new structure properly. so, when i stepped into class and realised i was 3rd to present, i'm like (o.0) uh oh. and sent an SOS "GOD, You've seriously got to help me or i'm so deadd!!"

and He did! felt that my actual presentation was better than my rehearsals. He gave me the energy and i even felt comfortable with my audience. (i think its cause i accidentally started early. =.= so it was pretty embarrassing. but guess when that happened, it kinda helped me to loosen up and laugh at myself, which gave me the ease for the rest of my speech) and yupps! thank God, the speech went well. (:

ohoh. and tai yong totally pwned the class today for his story-telling. xP. seriously. hahaha. plus his speech was pretty hilarious and enjoyable, well done mans. xDD.

for the quote of the day -
me (to a friend sitting in front of me): hey, what's your number? (with reference to the number we have to pick, so we know who's speaking in what order)
friend: oh, 23
ty: aiyo, christabel, thats NOT the way to ask a guy for his handphone number!!!

(#.#)
hahahahahaha. terrible.

had a great dinner with crusade people after that. ate with our seniors, mervyn, sarah joseph, rachel, and peers joel and ty. super amusing conversations. dinner lasted a lot longer than expected, but in a good way! (:

as we were talking about humour and attractiveness..
rachel: so far we have been talking about guys being funny. what about girls? are funny girls attractive?
mervyn: generally "funny" is perceived as intelligent. and guys get scared off when they think that a girl is "funnier" than them. so yeah, if a girl is too funny, her attractiveness level is likely to go down.

oh dear. xP.

check this out!!
its a smu facebook group about BOSS Bidding. hilarious.
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=191654656741&v=wall

and the best part about the whole of today? (:
was when sarah, mike, ty and i sat in the croom and took that time to pray for each other (and chloe! (:)
shared about some stuffs, and was yeah, really enlightened by what they said.
when i look at crusade, i'm always just so blown away by the Christ-like love they have for each other. something that yupps! i really need to learn to be more like!
i really love you guys (X

bgs

2009-11-03T23:58:00.002+08:00

today's bgs class was simply the BOMB. hahahaha.

ron, sanaya and i went a bit mad. actually kept the notes we wrote in class, cause i still laugh just re-reading them, ahahaha.

here's some. (of the mild ones)
"i want to eat chips"
"i want to zzzz"
"we don't even have to wear formal!!"
"we anyhow label outliers also no one knows"
"the guy's shirt is oversized"
"i feel like eating chilli crab now."

and my favourite?

the group was presenting on cosmetic surgery, and talking about whether it actually helps get people hired when they're better looking.
me: if you're good looking but you look like a slacker/chee ko pei, you wont get hired!
sanaya: but at first glance, how do you tell someone's a slacker??
me: okay okay. say he has this look on. *grouchy, attitude look* thats quite slacker, right?
sanaya: but if he's good looking, thats a SULTRY LOOK. xP
ron: nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai! (if a guy's not 'bad', girls wont love him)
sanaya: and WHY don't you have a gf? tell me again. xP
ron: i also don't know. (T.T)
sanaya: go PARTTTTYYYYY!!!!

hahaha, i just died-ed. sanaya. the more docile looking amongst the 4 of us, but she's the most hard-core party-er. xP.
(all that's said above was in jest okay! my group mates love each other la. xD)

pray for my management comms speech tomorrow okayyy!! RARRRR.

joyce's bday! (:

2009-11-02T23:42:00.003+08:00

yay girls! ((:

awwww. so romantic right.

we look a bit crazed here. hahaha.

tourists! xD

we look so squashed! xP

yum yum

2009-11-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

angels like to eat too.

tomorrow is monday

2009-11-01T22:32:00.004+08:00

(printscreened off facebook)
yeah, i can't believe it either. HAHAHA.

okay, had the worst ever saturday in a long time.

whatever i said was true. cruel. but true. and i suppose i should have been a lot nicer about it.
but when months of suppressed feelings go boomz. ah.
bad.

i know i'll eventually apologise for being so mean. ): i really shouldn't have la.
i'm sorry. i'm sorry both to you, and to God.

my anger is real. the many months of frustrations and hurt feelings too.

God, i need You to show me what to do.

the truth is, when this thing happened, i couldn't worship God. i wasn't worthy. when mum asked me "pray for dad", i answered, "mum, how? i'm not much better. in fact, probably worse a person."

i'm trying to hold onto the truth that God loved me when i was still a sinner, even before i got to know Him.

"not because of what i've done, but because of who You are."

sigh.

BOSS bidding tomorrow!!
Management Comms Speech on Wednesday!!
BGS stuffs due VERY soon!!!

AHHHHHHH!!! i need wisdom. lots.

did you know

2009-10-31T22:53:00.003+08:00

i can perform way better than your highest expectations,
and fail you far, far below your lowest.

everything you never thought i'd be.

calculus & mahjong

2009-10-31T00:05:00.002+08:00

full album here.

ooo, pop art. xD

perplexed

*point*

wha-?

"what are you doing!!!"

vic punched my eye out, uh oh! xP

yay mahjong people!

so cute huh. hahaha. yay for vic's photobooth, whooo!
fab, vic and tay crashed my house at around 9pm for mahjong. quite alot of laughs, ahaha.
but the truth is, i think i get stressed at mahjong. its a THINKING GAME OKAY!! how not to be stressed at a thinking game!! XP

overall, been really uptight today over calculus, the bane of my LIFEE.
had a calc quiz today which was totally horrible.
mike and i stayed in school till 11pm last night JUST to do school work. madness, i tell you. ): so that kinda accounts for why i'm so exhausted the whole of today, lack of sleep (#.#)

but had a good lunch with crusade seniors + mike at delifrance. hahaha. the seniors are so cute. and i'm SUPER grateful to pei qi. she sat with me for more than an hour just helping me with calculus homework. what a God-send.
I LOVE PEI QIIII XDDD.

could only attend worship for "jump", before a couple of us had to dash off for mang comms test. wrote a relatively short email though.. hmmmm. hope i can at least get a B or something.

on a different note, been feeling emotionally, physically, and spiritually drained and down this week.
and i don't know why.
maybe things are just getting all clumped up together. see. women are like spaghetti. xP.
while men are supposed to be waffles! xP

and i tell you la. i don't play politics, nor wish to get involved in any of it.
i do not have the capacity nor maturity to handle what you're asking of me.
*goes and hides under my comfy blankets instead*

tired tired. must sleep. VERY long day tomorrow.
please keep me in prayer.
i desperately need His peace, joy, strength and wisdom.

xD

2009-10-28T22:38:00.002+08:00

today was definitely an interesting day to say the least.

michael and i got introduced to 3 of ty's church friends, and the 6 of us had lunch at treehouse cafe. enjoyed the company alot, had a great time, ahaha. they're so amusing.

management comms class today was really boring for the first half of the lesson. we had to scrutinise 11 letters! to see what makes them effective, and what simply doesn't work. for the second half of the lesson, the prof showed us some video clips.
when he showed joshua harris' "i kissed dating goodbye", HAHAHA. xP. i shan't say further.

after class, we had a 'guest' for dinner today! ahaha. ben joined ty, mike and i for dinner at city hall (: (thanks for coming down ben xD)

"joshua harris wrote 'i kissed dating goodbye' when he was still single,
and 'boy meets girl' after he got married.
how much you wanna bet that his next book will be 'boy and girl produce babies' when they get their first kid?"
"and when his son grows up, the son'll come up with 'i kissed dating goodbye 2! (just like my dad!)'"

hahahahaha.
okay, i know, cheap thrill. xP

on the train home, ty was teaching mike and i hand actions for the worship songs he's leading next week, cause he wants us to demo the actions with him too.
yes. hand actions to "You're my all in all". on a crowded train.
(#.#)
it was almost a classic moment. *shakes head* hahaha, but its fun la. been so long since i've led worship with hand actions, kinda missed those days in kids ministry. where we'd lead the kids to dance for worship and stuffs ((:

anyway, its good seeing an old friend again today, catch up when exams are over yeah! (:

AHHH! BGS and FA time. toodles.

and thanks God for a great day ((:

the fray overload

2009-10-28T01:12:00.001+08:00

christabel. Your love makes it worth it all.
i dont have "trust me"
hahah, i was "dead wrong"
the fun theory says:
HAHAHAAHA
hilarious
christabel. Your love makes it worth it all.
"heaven forbid" i leave any more out
must be great having these songs "all at once"
the fun theory says:
then i'll need to learn "how to save a life"
for someone in a "little house"
christabel. Your love makes it worth it all.
my brains feel as if its "oceans away"
the fun theory says:
screaming "never say never"
then again its better left "unsaid"
christabel. Your love makes it worth it all.
"say when"?
okay okay, "enough for now"!
or we'll be spamming a "hundred" songs!
the fun theory says:
agh the "ungodly hour"
christabel. Your love makes it worth it all.
don't worry, He'll "look after you"
the fun theory says:
i wish i was in "vienna"
christabel. Your love makes it worth it all.
where you can join the "syndicate"?

Transfer of "10 Happiness.mp3" is complete.

the fun theory says:
in "vienna"!
christabel. Your love makes it worth it all.
hahaha now your "happiness" is complete xD

thats what staying up till 1am does to you.
THE FRAY OVERLOAD.

i bring everything

2009-10-28T00:41:00.000+08:00

Blue

2009-10-26T21:54:00.003+08:00

"ninja!! Wait for mana! Nono, just get the gunman!!! THE DRAGON AHHHH!!!!"
- mike & I on the train home

"next stop, bishan." - train
"aww, dang it. Train ride's so short today"

hahaha, The game "blue" is seriously addictive.xp.

Hmmm, been having a headache today, )x
really should sleep early today.

The seafood horfun at the Thai place tastes pretty good to my surprise! Was a nice coincidence that our crusade seniors decided to have lunch there too, hehe. Glad to see Chloe after such a long time too! =o
( Sarah, fri okayyy!!! Lunch or dinner's good for me (x )

On an entirely different note,
Blessed Birthday Joyce ((((((:
wheeeee... You're now as old as me! Hurray!

Us girls, namely Joanna, Cheryl, Cassandra, Joyce and I went out to celebrate her birthday yesterday (:
Cheryl please upload the pics!!
We took pics on the esplande rooftop, complete with a view of the Singapore Flyer at the back! XD how cool is that huh! (:

cwissy poo

2009-10-23T23:22:00.003+08:00

is the name of my new iphone, AHHHH!!!!! ((((:

*does a lil jig around the house* hahaha.
thanks to my parents for getting it for me. plus this really sexy red cover thingy. ahhhhh!!!!!

*goes off to download more apps* xDD

ohoh. my friend just showed me this

is that like THE coolest thing or what!

and, i really WILL wake up early tomorrow to do homework ARGGHHH!!

Your love makes it worth it all

2009-10-22T20:27:00.003+08:00

so cute rightttt.. (((: koped that off my friend's profile picture.

There is no love, sweeter than the love You pour on me.
There is no song, sweeter than the song You sing to me.
There is no place, that I would rather be,
Than here at Your feet, laying down everything.

All to You, I surrender,
Everything, every part of me.
All to You, I surrender,
All of my dreams, all of me.

If worship's like perfume, I'll pour mine out on You.
For there is none as deserving of my love like You.
So take my hand and draw me into You,
I want to be swept away, lost in love for You.

No turning back, I've made up my mind,
I'm giving all of my life this time.

Your love makes it worth it,
Your love makes it worth it all,
Your love makes it worth it all.

the truth is, i'm just waayyy blown away by God's love for me.
i mean, beyond measure.

my cry to God was "YOU be my security, YOU be my refuge. my worth's in YOU alone, and i want nothing else. i really need You to reveal to me how much You love me now, please do."
and how He really really comes near to the brokenhearted.

just today, got to pray for a few different people. and watch how His presence and love for them really makes such a difference. really, super awesomes. (((:
a friend just encouraged me too! which really spurred me on, yupps (:

i guess this whole thing's really, if anything, causes me to go running back closer to God than before. and when you do, how He really never disappoints you.
and helps me to see His perspective on stuffs.

thanks God. (:

siew mai

2009-10-21T23:17:00.002+08:00

the simplest joys in life can be found in eating a yummy siew mai (stuffed with prawns). and a tiny bowl of century egg porridge. and friends who seriously crack you up, hahaha. ty & mike are such a scream, i laughed like mad today. xP. & thanks ty for treating mike and i to dimsum! (:
(sarah, chloe, jeanne! please join us next lunch alright! (:)

management comms lesson. which was alright, i guess, eh-heh.

and chicken rice at dhoby ghaut exchange for dinner. not bad, for $3 per person. we shared a plate of veggie too (:

funny, how my life seems to revolve around the next meal we eat. and whether or not its yummy. xP.

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.
Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes.
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes,
you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist,
with the breastplate of righteousness in place,
and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.
In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith,
with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit,, which is the word of God.

And pray in the Spirit
on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be
alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
Pray also for me,
that whenever I open my mouth,
words may be given me
so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains.
Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
(Ephesians 6:10-20)

the 20th

2009-10-20T22:18:00.002+08:00

first and foremost, happy birthday mum & audrey han!! (:
hahaha.

and presenting to youuu.. the shirts that my sister made for mum! XDDD.
(which i think are really pretty, she has talent mans.)
gave her the idea to stencil it, and paint over. but what she actually did was waayyy better than what i had originally visualised. whoohooo. (:

HAHAHA. and i think sis looks super cool here. she's quite proud of her new haircut too, cause she thinks it makes her look jappy. xP
am quite full from the steamboat my family had for dinner. eh-heh. flower crabb! (:

My Refuge by Sonicflood

I take my refuge in the palm of Your hand
I take my comfort in Your perfect plan
I take my sorrow and lay it down at Your feet
I take my refuge where I can be free

In You, Oh Lord
In You, my God
When there's no where to turn
And there's nothing that's true
I find my peace here in You

I take my shelter in the shade of Your wings
I take my pleasure in the hope that You bring
I take my weakness to the foot of the cross
I take my refuge where I can get lost

I worship You, Lord
For all that You are
I stretch out my faith
And lay down my heart
There's no where else
That I'd rather be
Than where there's more You, Lord
And where there's less me

I will worship You with all my heart, my soul
I will worship You with all my mind, my strength

strength of my heart

2009-10-19T22:25:00.002+08:00

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever"
(Psalm 73:26)

"Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand."
(Psalm 73:23)

got my accounting mid-sem results today! got 43/50. which is like, quite a wow (for me, ahaha), and i really thank God.

glad jeanne could join us for lunch today! *hugs* with another new girl, ty, mike and me. haha, went on the "road less traveled" and we tried this new thai place thingy. glad i didn't order a dish though! the portions looked waayyy too big for me. xP.

watched my FA classmates eat dinner, and well, the new people i'm beginning to hang out with are really quite amusing, ahaha. makes FA slightly more fun. xP. followed by a slice of pizza with mike, and then we head home.

need to rush out 2.5 more pages of BGS essay!! =O
whole thing's supposed to be 4 pages long. eh-heh.
"should Google be regulated?"
and my answer "no, are you crazy?! who wants crappy search results from lousy websites?!"
now, to extend that to 4 pages worth.

"I am the LORD, I have called you in righteousness, I will also hold you by the hand and watch over you, And I will appoint you as a covenant to the people, As a light to the nations,"
(Isaiah 42:6)

"go study"

2009-10-18T23:33:00.001+08:00

han fei spontaneously shows me that! xP. God really knows when you need a good laugh.

anyway, this song seems rather apt right now.

Remain by Starfield
Defender of this heart
You loved me from the start
You never change

Through the highs and lows
As seasons come and go
You never fail

Day after day
Your love will remain
Faithful and true
You are good

[Chorus:]
You are God with us
You're victorious
You are strong and mighty to save
For Your word stands true
There is none like You
And when all else fades
You remain

When troubles come my way
You guide and You sustain
Lead me, I pray

Forever You will be
The great eternal King
Now and always

Day after day
Your love will remain
Faithful and true
You are good, you are good

[Chorus]

When all else fades
You remain

Cause' day after day
You never change
Day after day
You are the same
Day after day
You remain
yeah, You do.

meep

2009-10-18T19:09:00.004+08:00

(for lack of a better title)

friday:
- calculus was =.= super confused at the newest topics we were being taught. ARGHH. ):
- lunch at screme. mike and i had our usual oreo milkshake, and hawaiian pizza! double the sin, double the sore throat pain. xP.
- games day for crusade! played frisbee and dodgeball. hahaha. for all who are laughing right now, YES i did catch the frisbee okay!! like 7 out of 10 times! XP. (when we were randomly passing to each other in a circle. hahaha.) overall, it was kinda fun la. especially dodging the pillow and skipping out of the way.
- shopping with joyce and joanna darling! had dinner at crystal jade, followed by shopping at bugis street. (: not bad not bad. got a top and a skirt! xD.

saturday:
- went for cell group! where i was really impacted by what gideon shared. the verse that struck me the most was this.

"Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers."
(Luke 22:32)

immediately after this, simon peter says "Lord, I am ready to go with you to prison and to death." and well, as we all know, peter ended up denying Jesus 3 times, just as Jesus had predicted.

however, Jesus still says "And I tell you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades will not overcome it." (Matthew 16:18)

i guess it really just blew me away when i began thinking about how satan wants to wreck us, and Jesus is actually defending us. that His heart is FOR us, not against us.
the biggest encouragement to me is that well, although peter faltered in his faith when he denied knowing Jesus thrice, his faith never failed. just as Jesus had promised peter. peter later on rises up to be a great preacher, bringing thousands to Christ.

for me, sometimes i feel that when i've done something wrong, that i'm suchhhh a failure. but looking at the verse, Jesus says "when you've turned back, strengthen your brothers". yeah.. He's merciful in letting me see that there's purpose even in failure. eh-heh.

- after cell, i had to dash to plaza sing to support mike! MY GOSH. i took the bus from the wrong stop, and ended up going in the wrong direction, AHH! but okay, after much drama, i meet andrew at dhoby ghaut and off we go to catch the competition.

to mike, i thought you did an awesome job (as you always do! (: ) and we're all super proud of you for coming so far into the competition. (:

(sarah dear! upload the pics of us in the hats pleasseee! XD)

-sarah joins us a bit late (poor girl had to dash down from somewhere else). so sarah, andrew and i hang out at yoshi till mike's done, and we all go to hong kong cafe for dinner! (: towards the end of dinner, we suddenly get really hyped up about watching a movie, and we NEARLY forgot to pay the bill (#.#) hahaha.

and we caught "the ugly truth". my goodness. it was really hilarious, i've gotta admit. but quite awkward to watch with guys, don't you think! xP.
i really liked the ending, where the guy doesn't practice what he preaches for once. and falls in love with the girl, though he knows exactly how she's not the "ideal" girl he's been trying to change her to be. and how the girl chooses to throw away her list of "criterias" for someone she actually learnt to really love.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. hahaha.
all in all, it was a *hides face* at super oh-my-goodness moments, laugh-your-head-off at some, and awwwww-so-sweet for others.

yupps! (:
anyway, back to fa case study homework. bwrarrrrr. =X

band aid

2009-10-16T12:42:00.002+08:00

okay, i'm such a koper. hahaha.
found this on joyce darling's blog!

Band Aid by Pixie Lott
Mm hm da da da da da da da
When I met you
I really didn't like you
First impression was that you were somebody who
Walked right by when I waved at you and say 'Hi'
But they say
Bad beginnings make happy endings
And now that I know you I begin to understands things
Turn around a hundred and eighty degrees
I found my missing piece

There something 'bout you
That's like the sun
You warm up my heart, when I come undoneYou're like my soul mate
And on those days,
When I hurt
When I break
Mhm
You are my band aid You are, you are
When I hurt
When I break
You are You are, you are
When I hurt
When I break
You are

When I get caught in the rain
And it feels like
There is no one in the world who understands my
Complications that I face everyday
As I talk it through with you
No matter how I try to hide
Just see straight from my disguise
You know how to fix me
You are my therapy
Baby oh

There something 'bout you
That's like the sun
You warm up my heart when I come undone
You like my soul mate
And all those things
When I hurt
When I break
Mhm
You are my band aid You are, you are
When I hurt
When I break
You are You are, you are
When I hurt
When I break
You are

Isn't it funny how these things get turned around?
Just when I thought I knew you
You prove me wrong
I used to hate the things you love
And love the things you hate

And now I like it
I like it
I like it
Now I la la la like it
I like it
I like it
Now I la la la like it
I like it
I like it

There something 'bout you
That's like the sun
You warm up my heart when I come undone
You like my soul mate
And all those things
When I hurt
When I break
Mhm
You are my band aid You are, you are
When I hurt
When I break
You are You are, you are
When I hurt
When I break
You are

And now I like it
I like it
I like it
Now I la la la like it
I like it
I like it
Now I la la la like it
I like it
Lalalalalala I like it
I lalala like it
hahaha, okay, i know this sounds silly! but its like a love song to God for me. He's definitely my silly heart's band-aid. xP.

r/s b/w income inequality & trade

2009-10-15T21:41:00.004+08:00

in a conversation with a friend...
christabel. Your light's gonna lead me home
had a super long meeting!
talk until sore throat
yeah
and we found very exciting things abt trade and income inequality
do you know that the trade for 75% of the countries in the world
per capita
is less than $3000 ?
which means that in this entire world, abt 75% of the countries trade relatively little!
shocking right
and the only countries trading alot alot is europe
yeah mans
and it appears that the corelation b/w trade and income inequality is this
the more a country trades, the worse the income inequality
UNLESS a country has splendid infrastructure, and fantastic literacy rates, and there are hardly any landlocked areas
(e.g. singapore)
the reasons why poor countries are poor
is not because of trade
its cause they DONT get to trade
and thus dont get to make the income
wowwww huh

poor friend right. hahahaa.

but yeah! made all these findings for our Business, Govt & Society paper today and yesterday. we talked about it for 2 hours for our meeting today. rather embarrassing, but i think i'm a bit of a nerd at these things. (#.#) even excitedly drew a LRAS/AD curve during the meeting, to demonstrate how South America was increasing interest rates so as to curb their inflation (which also sadly decreases investment). nuts right. xD

apart from that nerdy "excitement", today was exciting in many other ways. got to pray for a friend, & share with a few friends.
God makes life really exciting (^^)

calculus test tomorrow!!!! better go revise. =O

praises God

2009-10-14T13:49:00.003+08:00

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

i just got my management comm presentation results. (remember the presentation i was rather emo about, cause the slides didn't flow properly?)

AND YEAH. we got an A-.
can you believe it.
i really thought we were sure to get a C or something.

when i saw the grades, and the comments, i really couldn't help but tear.. yeah. that though i had my doubts when things didn't seem to be going well, God knew exactly what He was doing. and He's more than faithful, even when i'm faithless.

(T.T)
thank you God. for everything You've done ((((((((((((((((:

of church bells & flowers!

2009-10-13T21:44:00.003+08:00

at the church! (:

the couple & all the TLBC people! (:

girls over flowers. HAHA. xD

yay purple. xD

i really like this pic! (X

jereeemmyyyyy.

wheee... (:

at the hotel!

on the hotel bed, hehehe.

BWRAR. (i was blowing my hair dry when cheryl took this pic. =O)

lalala.

at the wedding dinner!

the beautiful couple!

LOVE HER DRESS. doesn't she look like she's floating on clouds!

wheeee (:

we look like we're at a prom.

camwhore time. xD

yay for the girls (: (NOTICE the eyeshadow!!!) xD

joyce darling!

muwahaha.

cherrryyll! (:

james! hahah. aww, he's so shy. xP.

lynee!

beeriliflah. (beer, chilli and flowers.) only john can do such a thing, seriously. xP.

my darling.

2009-10-13T20:42:00.004+08:00

JOYCE says:
lol u should see my fb status
HAHAHA
i feel like an idiot now
christabel. Your light's gonna lead me home
oh dear
what did u write
; JOYCE says:
haha as in, i wanted to write on your wall. but because we have the same pic..i wrote on my on profile..like the status there HAHAHA
like some idiot
then later i saw my status on ur 'wall'
then i was like HUH

and her facebook status:
Joyce Chee wanted to write on christabel's wall but ended up updating her own status. HAHA

SUPER CUTE RIGHT. hehehehe.

anyway, thats the picture we're both using now. AWWWW. so romantic right. xD.

i am

2009-10-12T19:35:00.003+08:00

full from my dinner of mushroom ramen at koufu.
tired from my FA exam.
certain that the FA prof deliberately chose the ugliest font so that we'd be confused and sad.
wishing that i had been smarter and brought a jacket along, cause i nearly FROZE TO DEATH during the exam!
hoping that i won't do TOO badly for the exam, ~~though it doesn't seem likely.~~ & i've prayed, and He'll make a way.
sitting at the t-junction.
going to blog and de-stress before i launch into my BGS project group work AHHHHH.
GOING TO BUG CHERYL TO UPLOAD THE WEDDING PICTURES!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! xP
super conflicted!! ): i really wanna support michael for VPH finals this saturday (5-7pm, at Plaza Sing) but i have youth service at EXACTLY the same time. unless i go to church on sunday instead? (T.T)

on a random note, i feel like repainting my nail polish. eh-heh. its getting chipped. =O

and i'm really very sleepy, i wanna sleep! (T.T)

BGS tomorrow, oh yeah.

& You said

2009-10-11T23:55:00.002+08:00

"You came near when i called You,
and You said,
"Do not fear"."
(Lamentations 3:57)

of percy pigs and lab coats

2009-10-10T01:07:00.002+08:00

wheeee.. featuring the percy pig sweets simmy gave me yesterday. ahahaha. yupps. gradys and i ate them. xD. (thanks for them simmy! xD) my darling NTU biochemistry girl. xP
eating percy pig sweeties over my FA textbook and GDC.

you mean you didn't know i'm actually studying organic chem as one of my mods! =O

wheee.. am thankful i had gradys dear as my study buddy today! ahaha. reminded me abit of our O level mugging days, my gosh. xP. i've really missed her! =O

junhao's wedding tomorrow!! my gosh. feel so confused about whether i should go home to bathe and stuffs before dinner. =X. dannnggg.

but that aside, don't you think weddings are exciting (:
though, i guess a life-time committment to someone is quite a frightening thought.. =X.

i really would want my future wedding to be exciting! like, something all my guests would look forward to. xD. as a door gift, i'll give them each a silver helium balloon, and tie a cute little bear to it. (wouldn't that be cooler than those typical hotel chocolates?) or tie red cardboard hearts. hoho.
and for my wedding invitation, i'd probably want it to look super cool too. like, i don't know, maybe make it look like a really pretty bookmark? xD. so people would definitely wanna keep it, and would remember to come for the wedding dinner!
and for the food, i'd definitely want chinese. no wedding dinner is complete without steamed fish. western food for wedding is just bleh. =X. (i mean.. look at prom! i was so sad there wasn't any steamed fish!)

maybe i'd even have awesome theatre lights. make the whole event a bit more dramatic. and i'd play my favourite songs. and have a time of worship even! (: cause i'd want to grab the chance to perhaps let my guests experience Him.
and maybe, i'd get my future husband and i to share about God to our guests! so even the dinner itself will be an exciting testimony! (:
and maybe... studying too much accounting has gotten to my head. xP. oh dear.

i'd better sleep now! don't want horrible eyebags tomorrow! =O

never was a cloudy day

2009-10-08T23:44:00.004+08:00

PLEASE WATCH THIS RIGHHHTT to the end!
i died. its sooo cute!! XD.

random puppets aside, i'm really thankful to God for today.

went to school for lunch with mike! too bad screme's closed today, oh boo hoo. xP. and who else should we meet at koufu but ty and joel? =O

stared at fa in the croom. talked with a few people, and a senior prayed with me! which i was really grateful for. yupps.. until i started sharing out loud, i hadn't realised so many things were really dragging me down. but am glad i got to talk it out, and am believing that He'll surely bring His word to pass!

later on, met simmy for dinner! (:
really really missed this dear girl. my goodness!
realised that we weren't alone in the things we were facing, and had the chance to suppport each other/pray for each other/encourage.
that was much-needed dear, thank you (: and i love you!! *HUGS*

for michelle dear! (:

2009-10-07T16:09:00.001+08:00

click to see the enlarged version! (:

we'll miss you michelle!

2009-10-07T02:13:00.002+08:00

paul, kerry, chong wee and i sent michelle off today! ):

WE'LL MISS YOU DEAR. please take care of yourself okayy!!

entire album here!

the sender-off-ers.

we love michelle! (:

KERRY!! XP

weird smile, lol.

cw camwhored with my slr! HAHA. first prize. xD

awwww, they're so cute (:

(((:

can you see paul chu trying to bend down? ahaha. xP

so happy i got to meet nicole mao today too! (: glad we had the chance to eat supper together dear XD

hammie overload!

2009-10-06T18:56:00.002+08:00

i have 3 adorable baby hamsters. hahaha.
never before have i had a batch with such distinct and crazy personalities, my gosh, they're SUCH a scream. xD.

one screams.. and screams.. and screams.. when i took him out, he FREAKED out, screamed, and jumped off the sofa. and ran around, still screaming. it was hilarious, i simply fell over from laughing so hard. xP.

while his sibling screams his little head off, another hamster just SITS. and STARES. he doesn't budge at all. even when you carry it, he hardly moves a twitch. really good to take pictures of this one, he's adorable. (:

and the white one! she's amazzzinnngg. just flips on her back, and twitches there in fear, flailing her lil 4 paws around. when i carried her from the sofa back to the cage (after our "photoshoot"), she was STILL on her back. HAHAHA.

okay, so now you know how i've been amusing myself today. xP.

wheee...

2009-10-03T22:43:00.002+08:00

6.13 of 2008. xD. (quite alot of us, huh? (:)

i thought this picture was cool cause she had similiar fringe to mine. HAHA.

the exam hall!

i find it funny when i think about how tay used to sit right in front of me during the exams. & we'd give each other these (o.0)" looks after our papers.

spastic smile!

taken at holland v's starbucks. (you can see this when you're at the counter collecting your coffee. no joke.)

awww. mee-she-elle!

tay, chong wee, michelle, derek & me (:

had to put my "creative" skills to good use today. thank God i've been practicing, giving "consultation" to my friends doing 'creative thinking' this semester for their module. HAHAHA.
basically, calista made a scrapbook for gideon! (why does this sound familiar, eh guys? xP) and today, we had to fill up alot alot of pages, paste pictures, design & things. had fun doing it, though it was kinda stressful, since we only had about an hour plus to do quite a number of pages, each with a different design.
calista and angie did most of the work though, hats off to them for the gorgeous cover page they made for him!

worship at cell was really awesome. God's presence just fell amongst us, like that. and i really thank God for that, for showing Himself to oikos more and more especially these few weeks (:

today's sermon was titled "break out", about how our desire to be HEALED of our disabilities must be greater than our 'love' for our disability.
what i mean is this. that some have gotten used to, say, being negative and cynical. so much so that they would rather remain this way than to be healed of this.

after service, led the reflections with my cell. shared with them honestly about some stuffs that He's been talking to me about. and after that, had the opportunity to pray with them. was really glad to hear their sharings too..
upon reflection, i realised that each of us have our own struggles beneath our seemingly perfect masks. and it seems that with each cell, each service. i can feel Him chipping away at the masks, wanting to create a church with real people. who really love each other.
awesomes huh. (:

okay, i'm really tired out! i thank you God for a good day (:

angel wings! xD

2009-10-03T01:01:00.002+08:00

ratherrr long day to say the least! been out from 8am-12am. =O

thank God i paid close attention in calculus today! and whewww. i actually understood today's lessons on differentiation. he was teaching us some new formulas like y'. =/

lunch with mike later at burger king. we look at each other after we've eaten and go "oh.. look. we've got two and a half hours to kill before 'jump' starts.. we could.. always head to the croom and study..."
and we have this expression on our face ==> (o.0)
HAHAHA.
OR WE COULD GO CATCH AN AWESOME MOVIE LIKE "SURROGATES" AT THE CATHAY!! WHICH WE DID!!
WHOOO!!

more fun than watching the movie (seriously) was 'bragging' to our dear crusade pals at jump. HAHAHA.
their envious remarks like "WHAT?! i've not watched a movie this whole semester!" and "why so happening one!!! AHHH!!" were just priceless.
=D =D =D

THIS IS A SIGN THAT YOU SHOULD ALL LIGHTEN UP PEOPLE! (especially the friday before our much-needed recess week.) wheeee..... hehehe.

that aside, enjoyed jump alot today. needed to really come to His presence! glad for that time of getting things right with Him, prayer and worship. (:

after jump, headed down to acsi for the art exhibit! was a nice surprise to see quite alot of my classmates there! (: (maybe we're all seriously "artsy" or something. xP. so i like to think. hehe.)
tay, cw, paul chu, jeremy, derek, deb khoo & victoria.
and chloe darling actually cabbed down to see =O hahaha. she was like "yeah, pay $15 juts to see you mah." LOLL. xP. YEAH right. hehehe.

tagged along with derek for his church's prayer meeting thingy. (so that i could catch a glimpse of michelle!! xD) and later toodled off to broadway for dinner. following that, cw, tay and i decided to head to holland v for some 'coffee'. =X. hmmm. and derek and michelle join us for a period of time there! (:

"look! michelle's wearing a zebra on her shirt! ZEBRA 'priincee'!" - chong wee

had to sit in and listen to ALOTTT of cw and tay's typical dodgy stuffs. MY GOODNESS. *shakes head* and i hadn't even realised how long i haven't listened to their type of rubbish.
facial mask.. how to cook carbonara.. AND goodness, the picture of the drawing at the starbucks sign!!! first prize, really. xP.

ohoh. tay bought me a black army backpack! AHAHA. so i can now carry everythinggg using just the bag (and its really comfy!) wheee.. no more carrying stuffs using my arms. gets so tiring carry my laptop on long mrt rides, when you dont get to sit!
THANK YOOOUUU (((X

will upload pictures from today once tay puts them up on facebook!

long day ahead tomorrow. but OH WELL, AT LEAST ITS THE START OF THE RECESS WEEK, THANK YOU GOD! ((:

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
p.s. mahjong, okay? (X

awww

2009-10-01T22:56:00.003+08:00

this is so cute. xD.

"i think it’s much harder for girls. for them, there exists two kinds of boys: the ones whom they learned how to love/they were taught how to love, and the ones they love just because. neither is necessarily the one we love better, but of course who do you think is more likely to get the best of us? the one we love just because, the boy we wished so hard we could fight for, the unfinished business, the promise yet to be fulfilled. you boys complain about all your wasted efforts when it comes to courtship, but what about us? realize that the hurt that comes from waiting is much worse than that of what you experience. waiting never guarantees anything, especially results.
sometimes girls wait all their lives. they choose to settle for the ones who fight for them instead of those who they wish they could fight for.

This hit me harder than you may ever know."

taken from adora's blog.
ahahaha. and what did i say about not looking at teenage angst posts, huh huh!

but this one's niceee! joyce dear pointed it out to me.

i was telling her, "hey! you can say that to God mans!" xDD. don't you think?

staring at tumblr aside, my day's been nice and slack. thank God. needed a breather!
DG at 2pm. BGS meeting at 3-5pm.

and mum just brought me shopping at thomson plaza for a wedding dinner dress! (God provides! was getting worried about what to wear for junhao's wedding. xP)
its this tube thingy, with black sequins. ahaha! (: and looks kinda glittery. i need black heels though.. hmmm. how ah how.

calculus at 8.30am tomorrow. crusade jump at 4pm. art exhibit with tay at 7pm. (hopefully our other classmates can come too! as army permits. ahaha.)

for your glory to fall

2009-10-01T01:44:00.001+08:00

Cry In My Heart by Starfield

There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things
that are deeper

Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You)

For what do I have
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life
Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter
Of my head
Lifter of this head